Loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere. In bars, in cars, sidewalks, stores, everywhere. There's no escape. I'm God's lonely man.

Taxi driver (1976)

"I'm not really traumatized"
Also me : can't remember huge chunk of my childhood

I accepted it already, but it still makes me sad.

‍But what can be done for someone like us that has many inner winters and does not wait for the seasons? What about us with the uncontrollable mood swings?

You are a part of my world now.when I wake up I reach for you and even though you are not physically there I feel you move inside me.I breath and my lungs are full of you.There is no moment my heart stops feeling you or missing you.please come soon.please stay.
-V-

"It makes me feel that rather than worrying and theorising about the state of the world, which helps no one, I should put my energy into living and being happy. When I try to picture for myself what a happy life might look like, the picture hasn’t changed very much since I was a child—a house with flowers and trees around it, and a river nearby, and a room full of books, and someone there to love me, that’s all."

-Sally Rooney, from Beautiful World, Where Are You.

I talk a lot but I am also a very good listener. When Diego was making Frida suffer she said "you must train your heart like a dog. Teach it to stay gone." I LISTENED. I sat down with my heart. Taught it a thing or two. Taught it how to stay behind reason. How to spot cause and effect. How to not say yes on impulse. How to stop begging and trying to please people that use it. My heart now knows itself well. It STAYS GONE. It won't COME BACK FOR YOU. It wont come back for NOBODY.
-Yakari Gabriel

𝙾𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟸𝟺, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟷
𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶 -𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹.

if this doesn’t work, then instead treat yourself as you would a child. with love and Kindness. "little you" is the you before the wreckage, the trauma, the cruelty. Heal your inner child and keep it safe.

If you are true to yourself, every day would be a Halloween. Hence the original and scariest mask one could ever wear is to be true to oneself.