If it ends up working out in my favor

Souls like this🖤

Notes to self #3

Without any preconditions involved

How do you keep your trauma away from the people you love?...how do you not have panic attacks and ruin a good time? how do you not suddenly start crying and dampen their mood? How do you not project your insecurities on them? How do you communicate and not leave them overthinking?

Now I know why they say to fix yourself so falling in love with you doesn't become toxic for them

“...you’re a whore, the baby is a bastard but there’s no word for the man who doesn’t come back.”

From a young age her life has been abnormal, she knows that. But so much is covered over in time now, the way leaves fall and cover a piece of earth, and eventually mingle with the soil. Things that happened to her then are buried in the earth of her body.

- Sally Rooney, from Normal People: A Novel