To be alone, to be able to be alone is self-education. Solitude is choosing the type of pain, and practicing the actions of the heart with the freedom of self-made, or what is like being free from outside and making an emergency landing in yourself without a survival parachute. You sit alone as an idea devoid of the argument of proof, without contemplating what is going on in the dialogue between the outward and the inward. Solitude is filtered, not mirrored. It throws what is in your left hand into your right hand, and nothing changes in the movement from no idea to meaningless. But this innocent absurdity does no harm or benefit. Solitude is the choice of the affluent, it is the choice of the free.

Let's have a free classroom in solitude with isolé à âme.

𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟹, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟼
𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

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Something to sleep to today or wake up to tomorrow.🖤

ከልቡ ያልታረቀ የአምላኩ ደጅ መቼ ይከፈትለታል?

I feel like I have exhausted my words. I feel as if I had lived with this pain all my life,I don't know what to speak of other than it.pain.suffering. loneliness. Darkness. These words and much more words of misery were painted all over my writings. I pick up my pen to write and I see my soul being exhausted of it. Like it was gonna drain me. Creating metaphor to beautify the pain is so exhausting. A friend once asked me why I stopped writing love letters. I said to him that I can't keep milking a love that isn't there. Believe me I have loved and I have been loved but never in the way most have been. I felt like I was beating a drum from my side and noone was responding to any of it. How clueless am I? How did I send love letters knowing there is noone to reply back. Kafka had milena. Me. I had noone. It was pretty frustrating coming to my senses and realizing how I have fed up my words speaking of a love long lost. And ofcourse a pain that is long to live. I don't know which spectrum I should write about. Something that is different from what I have been writing all this time. I fear I will never be able to look at the spaces of my heart I haven't looked at yet. I fear I will never change. I fear I will live bleeding a pain that always creeps in the back and a love that doesn't exist. I fear I am noone without it. I fear if I listen to the exhaustion of my soul and stop writing,I won't ever speak again...despite how many words I utter.


-Yeab T🌬

𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟺, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟸
𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟶-𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟹

Woman speaking facts!!!

A message for you🖤

And for me MOSTLY

I always felt like I owed people the effort of trying to conceal my emotions. Always putting up a mask became my day to day duty. Years earlier I packed my emotions in a suitcase,kissed them and did my farewells. Years later I have realized that I have shut out myself in so long. I can't help to ask if it was fair on myself to have gone through what I went through. I can't help to blame myself and the ones around me. I made it essential to lighten up moods,to make myself be seen sociable,reckless,free,wild while I was at the same time being gutted by overwhelming emotions wanting to be silent,safe,guarded. But now I feel like I have tortured myself enough trying to be what I am not but that doesn't mean I forgot the dues you have to pay when you are vulnerable. Not all your emotions are celebrated. People don't like messy. People don't want real. They don't want naked. They constantly praise fake. Today I woke up at 12 o'clock to send an invitation to my long lost suitcase of emotions. I have sat down with my heart. Talked with it. Listen to what it has always been trying to say to me. It told me not to hide but it has also made me see that just as I don't owe people fake emotions I don't also owe them real feelings for them to just drag it around. If you had asked me years earlier what hiding my emotions from people tasted like it would have tasted a bit much like hiding them from myself too. Having seen what it's like to be me don't you think I finally owe myself that vulnerability.......to myself I mean. All of this was worth the pain I went through cause I can finally see clearly. This is me tip toeing. This is me finally noticing the craving of my tired heart. This is me getting in touch with my soul. This is me realizing how much of a precious thing it is to be me and to feel what I feel.
-Yeab T🌬