Have you ever been in a moment where something that makes you happy is happening and you feel your heart break cause things will definitely change and you don't know what to do when things finally change?

Does this even make sense?

Everything in here💔

"Embrace me, Melina, embrace me, the words are not enough."

Franz Kafka

"Embrace me, Melina, embrace me, the words are not enough."

Franz Kafka

“I am tired of being a person. Not just tired of being the person I was, but any person at all. I like watching people, but I don’t like talking to them, dealing with them, pleasing them, or offending them. I am tired.”
― Susan Sontag, I, etcetera

"My mind is bruised from the relationships I had and people I loved"

"We may cry for the loss of a lover, and we may cry because of grief, or torture..., many things that may make us cry. but the most bitter cry for a person is to cry for himself. sorrow for himself, and pity for his condition ... to feel that you lost yourself while you are still alive."

I think you’ll find a girl who exhales answers instead of a never-ending stream of questions, one whose hands aren’t always ink-stained, one whose heart doesn’t live in her throat, one whose demons are small enough to be tucked into the back of her closet, sealed in a box, only let out once or twice a year when she’s drunk off of cheap wine, a girl who doesn’t feel like her head is going to explode every day, who doesn’t dream about the kitchen knives. You’ll find a girl who doesn’t write poems for you, but that’s okay because she smiles all the time and there is always light in her eyes, never a thunderstorm.
I will try not to blame you when you find this girl because now that I know what a horrible place my own mind is, I could never ask someone else to want to stay there too.

I shouldn't polish my words before I speak

Not me shamelessly stealing posts of other channels🤦🏽‍♀

You tolerate ugliness, beatings of children and rape of women, cursing and blaming, domestic violence, racism, tolerance of Politics, America, your sectarianism, government corruption, you tolerate child marriage, with everything!
You tolerate the nonsense of the whole world but you do not tolerate a poem!

Sometimes people exist just for you to have a good time with and then move on from. And once you can accept that, it makes everything a lot easier, because a lot of happiness stems from managing expectations. The reason we get hurt so much is because we have a good time with someone and then we obsess waiting for them to text us, wanting to see them again, stalking them, picturing our life with them and then when we find out they don’t want exactly what we do, we’re crushed. But really, they don’t owe us a future or anything at all, they don’t even owe us a text the next day. And I’ve come to accept that sometimes a good time can just be a good time, without the promise of a future, and that’s fine.

What if I can't make peace with it not having a future?

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