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I have always told myself repeatedly that the reason that people left me is because I wasn't worth it."I amnot worth enough for someone to stay..I am just the non deserving one who seem to spoil everything fresh in life. I am destined to rot everything good in life..maybe I am just weak a branch unable to hold the fruit that sweetened my life and make it worth of being a branch..cause what is a branch without its ability to hold a fruit." I thought there was something wrong with me. Something abnormal of me to why they did the thing they did. Maybe the repetition of people being sick of who I am made me believe it after all.I have always had a hard time opening up for people because I fear that if I become too vulnerable they will leave too...if they see something in me that everyone saw when they left. To lower that guard down...To want to be loved...takes too much. I despised myself for wanting to be cared for and loved for once. This is a reminder that it's ok to feel this way. I have to go easy on myself. This is the first step.🖤🖤🖤
Forwarded from Beneath the facades
I want to explain how exhausted I am. Even in my dreams.How I wake up tired. How I'm being drowned by some kind of black wave.
Forwarded from • 𝘶𝘯𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘴 • (𝘳𝘢𝘦𝘯)
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show me your scars,
i promise i'll kiss them.
show me your scars,
i promise i'll kiss them.
Forwarded from 𝗕𝗟𝗔𝗖𝗞
"But, I painfully loved you." I said as my voice cracks, "I love you so much, much, much that it just hurts every minute I’m without you." I cried. "much that I walk to you through this door knowing I'd be leaving the room broken, hurt and lost but I walked in to you without fear. I walked in to hold the hands that always used to hurt me, I was bleeding, I am bleeding, and I don't mind keep on bleeding, If my soul is scratched by you."
“I dreamt you came back last night, and everything fell back into place. But then I woke up, and lost you all over again. And it hurt the same as it did the first time.”