We also bite pens, ten fingers are not enough for regrets and anxiety.

Thoughts hub

The day I say this to myself with pure kindness it's over for everyone.

We overthink till we go nuts...constantly every second.

In slumber;my body feels better
The motivations of life are broken
The batteries of motivation which fuel my life
Have died. I guess they jerked out this body for it was waste of energy.
The fire keeping my body alive has lost its fury.
I lay all arsenal mother nature gave me to fight the struggles.
Mama nature never knew I was feeble force
So she gave me her best artillery.
I'm sorry mama. I failed you. I failed my self. I failed my generations.
I'm only left with my shadow.
My shadow has begun diminishing as well. I guess I have to lie down on the floor alone;
In a peaceful-wait for my body to rot with it's ingenuity and stupidity.
-IOS

I always find it hard to find pleasure in small things.

True.

It can't always be about the pain.💔

Q. If you ever find love,what do you think you will say about it? What is that love to you?

A. Love is like that frog and boiling water experiment thing. You don’t know it exactly when it starts. You realize it on “oh am fucked!” moment.

I can’t define it but it feels calm and energetic at the some time

#AskWs

I don’t want you to love me because I’m good for you, because I say and do all the right things. Because I am everything you have been looking for.
I want to be the one you didn’t see coming. The one who gets under your skin. Who makes you unsteady. Who makes you question everything you have ever believed about love. I want to be the one who makes you feel reckless and out of control; the one you are infuriatingly and inexplicably drawn to.
I don’t want to be the one who tucks you into bed; I want to be the reason why you can’t sleep at night.

— LANG LEAV

I begged you to want me but you didn't want to.💔

At the end of the day we can handle more than we thought we could.

Thoughts hub

You laugh and look happy despite everything because in your heart you realize that you are able to overcome all this, even though you are the same person who was crying an hour ago and asserted that he was too weak to bear more, and he will cry after an hour and confirm again that he is much weaker to complete. Going back then laughing hysterically.
—Our story of mood swings

I did not get a scholarship to Oxford, and I slept in biology class, and I was bad in Geography. But I have managed to stay alive until now.

Words were like seeds which I watered with hope.Hope gave birth to trust and I glowed and growed with it.The sun rays were the beautiful moments we shared together like the Romeo and Juliet of the century. The rain were the glistening joys and tears of nights spent moaning; plucking tears of joy. We fertilized it with every prayer when the sun's glow was absorbed by the cloud. It bloomed with the wheels of our fortune. A weed came into the field's presence and torn-apart the existence of our chemistry.The fruits of our love couldn't sprout to its full fruition for the infiltration of the new girl brought corruption in our life.
The unfortunate fruit whose flower's nectar gave birth to jealousy among our foes and friends has become a social ridicule.
-IOS

All my life, I’ve been going around waiting for something. All my life, in fact, I’ve felt as if… as if I was waiting in a railway station. And I’ve always felt as if… as if the living I’ve done so far hasn’t actually been real life but a long wait for it…a long wait for something real.

Will I ever find that someone?

Questions I ask myself
Am i being a good person?
Am i tricking myself into thinking that i am kind?
That i am thoughtful?
And that I truly care about others as much as myself?

There are lots of beautiful souls out there just as yours 🖤

I doubt my soul being beautiful and finding someone but I will accept what you said🖤