I have walked through streets
I have crawled through places
I have exchanged glances with strangers
I have walked...I have crawled I have dragged my whole empty body
I have commanded my limbs to walk...to wave...to people aware of my body but not its inner works
I am walking now too by the streets
In hope of tiring my limbs enough to focus on it instead of my exhausted heart
And also in a mere hope of finding a person stranger enough to not give a conclusion about me
Someone to hold hand to and cry for no reason with
Faces I know ain't done nothing for me
But maybe this one will
I look at him
He looks like he got a story to tell
What if he is the one to be the prince to win the voices
I approached him...held his hand...and said "tell me about your dreams and I will tell you mine let's create a symphony over the voices in our minds"
He stared at me like one has never before
Looked at me like he was gonna figure me out with a glance
But what is the fault in that
I did too
Figured him out with a glance
Thought he could save me in seconds
After a moment of silence
He said back
"Do you have voices in your head?"
"Do they try to choke you?"
"Does it help to be heard?"
"Is there a mortal strong enough to win them?"
"If there is then hold my hand until I save you and you save me while I look at you and you look at me with your strange eyes"
We talked and talked for moments like those type of talks found only on worn pages of books...
I sighed because it wasnt a dream....or atleast this time it didnt feel like one
I said to myself,"maybe this one is gonna stay"
For a moment I decided to not fight myself on this
To not trouble myself of crushing this hope I feel
You walked with me
I could have sailed the whole world just by walking with you .....
A stone baulked me and as soon as it did you held me....tight.....
I felt like with a grip you erased all the hurt that came with living
But it was too Good to be true
I always knew that....and I know now cause I woke up.....i woke from a dream that felt so real
Who was i fooling???
The joke is all on me...
Only a broken can love me that much
But the ones who are broken dont wanna be found🖤🥀🥀🥀
-Yeab T🥀-

I don't care where as long as you are with me and I am with you and you let me,let me love you like a woman.let me hold you like a baby. Let me shine like a diamond. Let me be who I am meant to be🖤🖤🖤

Give yourself time to heal

A work from months ago that still has too much parts of me in it

I am just a girl who noone wants to get close
I am a living
yet
dying soul
who noone wants to know their day about
who noone wants to touch
a simple yet sophisticated girl
but not in an appealing more like in a repealing way
more like in a way a stranger spits on as they pass by
hearing disgust in their words

I wanted to find a home..for me to lay my head on
and to do that I searched for all the ones who are broken like me
Who long for an island to rest upon
I searched in hope of finding someone lost enough to know the emptiness in me
maybe everyone has a home
maybe it's just me
who got it all wrong
who got an abnormal gene
maybe it's me who ruined me
-Yeab T🥀-

Arthur:I was wondering if you could ask the doctor to increase my medication?

Arthur you are on 7 different medications.surely they must be doing something

Arthur:I JUST DON'T WANNA FEEL SO BAD ANYMORE.🖤🖤🖤🖤

You are allowed to terminate toxic relationships. You are allowed to walk away from people who hurt you. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself.

It was like nobody ever saw me. Even I didn't know if I really existed.....for my whole life I didn't know if I really existed.
-joker🖤🖤🖤

"When I first met her, I knew in a moment I would have to spend the next few days re-arranging my mind so there’d be room for her to stay."

You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place. Like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place because you'll never be this way ever again.

how can someone be all of this in once?

"We are born alone, live alone and then die alone, it is only through love and friendship that we create the illusion enough to convince us that we are not alone."

I love you on behalf of all those who saw you and passed away.

You know the feeling that you have a desire to cry incessantly because you want to fulfill a wish, but you feel that it is impossible, and all circumstances are not permissible and everything is forbidden, and the whole world is screaming: "No!"

I’m thinking only of my illness and my health, though both, the first as well as the second, are you.
—Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

I crave this level of connection....well not always but sometimes🖤🖤🖤

I was in the winter of my life - and the men I met along the road were my only summer.
At night | fell asleep with visions of myself dancing and laughing and crying with them.
Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times.

The moment you realize that you have fought enough for people who won't fight for you
The moment you realize your worth
The moment you know that you have wondered through the dark enough for so long
The moment you accept the fact that there is no one coming to put your broken pieces together
and
that it has always been YOU for YOU
AT that exact moment
you will BREATH for the FIRST time and
you will HEAL once and for all


-Yeab T🥀-

I think I just found my whole entire life story