I don't want someone to see the good in me, I want someone who sees the bad in me and still wants me.
— Kaneki Ken

She hated reading. She only liked this italian poet. Cesar pavesse. He said "we donot remember days we remember moments."
Anytime I was having a bad day she always said that like it was supposed to fix something.🖤🖤🖤

How can I describe it to you if you don't see it? It is a form not just a feeling, look at my face pallor, pay attention to my lethargy, to my slow walk, to my eyes, my isolation, listen to my silence, look at my calmness, read what I write and you will know what cushioning my ribs.

I am excited to see what they have to offer

🎬 Love and Other Drugs

What I fear most is to let Love burn me until there is nothing left of me and to realize it after it is too late......🖤
-Yeab T🥀-

I have walked through streets
I have crawled through places
I have exchanged glances with strangers
I have walked...I have crawled I have dragged my whole empty body
I have commanded my limbs to walk...to wave...to people aware of my body but not its inner works
I am walking now too by the streets
In hope of tiring my limbs enough to focus on it instead of my exhausted heart
And also in a mere hope of finding a person stranger enough to not give a conclusion about me
Someone to hold hand to and cry for no reason with
Faces I know ain't done nothing for me
But maybe this one will
I look at him
He looks like he got a story to tell
What if he is the one to be the prince to win the voices
I approached him...held his hand...and said "tell me about your dreams and I will tell you mine let's create a symphony over the voices in our minds"
He stared at me like one has never before
Looked at me like he was gonna figure me out with a glance
But what is the fault in that
I did too
Figured him out with a glance
Thought he could save me in seconds
After a moment of silence
He said back
"Do you have voices in your head?"
"Do they try to choke you?"
"Does it help to be heard?"
"Is there a mortal strong enough to win them?"
"If there is then hold my hand until I save you and you save me while I look at you and you look at me with your strange eyes"
We talked and talked for moments like those type of talks found only on worn pages of books...
I sighed because it wasnt a dream....or atleast this time it didnt feel like one
I said to myself,"maybe this one is gonna stay"
For a moment I decided to not fight myself on this
To not trouble myself of crushing this hope I feel
You walked with me
I could have sailed the whole world just by walking with you .....
A stone baulked me and as soon as it did you held me....tight.....
I felt like with a grip you erased all the hurt that came with living
But it was too Good to be true
I always knew that....and I know now cause I woke up.....i woke from a dream that felt so real
Who was i fooling???
The joke is all on me...
Only a broken can love me that much
But the ones who are broken dont wanna be found🖤🥀🥀🥀
-Yeab T🥀-

I don't care where as long as you are with me and I am with you and you let me,let me love you like a woman.let me hold you like a baby. Let me shine like a diamond. Let me be who I am meant to be🖤🖤🖤

Give yourself time to heal

A work from months ago that still has too much parts of me in it

I am just a girl who noone wants to get close
I am a living
yet
dying soul
who noone wants to know their day about
who noone wants to touch
a simple yet sophisticated girl
but not in an appealing more like in a repealing way
more like in a way a stranger spits on as they pass by
hearing disgust in their words

I wanted to find a home..for me to lay my head on
and to do that I searched for all the ones who are broken like me
Who long for an island to rest upon
I searched in hope of finding someone lost enough to know the emptiness in me
maybe everyone has a home
maybe it's just me
who got it all wrong
who got an abnormal gene
maybe it's me who ruined me
-Yeab T🥀-

Arthur:I was wondering if you could ask the doctor to increase my medication?

Arthur you are on 7 different medications.surely they must be doing something

Arthur:I JUST DON'T WANNA FEEL SO BAD ANYMORE.🖤🖤🖤🖤

You are allowed to terminate toxic relationships. You are allowed to walk away from people who hurt you. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself.

It was like nobody ever saw me. Even I didn't know if I really existed.....for my whole life I didn't know if I really existed.
-joker🖤🖤🖤

"When I first met her, I knew in a moment I would have to spend the next few days re-arranging my mind so there’d be room for her to stay."