He was in tears, and he did not know the reason.

Do you think I can fix myself?

I don't want someone to see the good in me, I want someone who sees the bad in me and still wants me.
— Kaneki Ken

She hated reading. She only liked this italian poet. Cesar pavesse. He said "we donot remember days we remember moments."
Anytime I was having a bad day she always said that like it was supposed to fix something.🖤🖤🖤

How can I describe it to you if you don't see it? It is a form not just a feeling, look at my face pallor, pay attention to my lethargy, to my slow walk, to my eyes, my isolation, listen to my silence, look at my calmness, read what I write and you will know what cushioning my ribs.

I am excited to see what they have to offer

🎬 Love and Other Drugs

What I fear most is to let Love burn me until there is nothing left of me and to realize it after it is too late......🖤
-Yeab T🥀-

I have walked through streets
I have crawled through places
I have exchanged glances with strangers
I have walked...I have crawled I have dragged my whole empty body
I have commanded my limbs to walk...to wave...to people aware of my body but not its inner works
I am walking now too by the streets
In hope of tiring my limbs enough to focus on it instead of my exhausted heart
And also in a mere hope of finding a person stranger enough to not give a conclusion about me
Someone to hold hand to and cry for no reason with
Faces I know ain't done nothing for me
But maybe this one will
I look at him
He looks like he got a story to tell
What if he is the one to be the prince to win the voices
I approached him...held his hand...and said "tell me about your dreams and I will tell you mine let's create a symphony over the voices in our minds"
He stared at me like one has never before
Looked at me like he was gonna figure me out with a glance
But what is the fault in that
I did too
Figured him out with a glance
Thought he could save me in seconds
After a moment of silence
He said back
"Do you have voices in your head?"
"Do they try to choke you?"
"Does it help to be heard?"
"Is there a mortal strong enough to win them?"
"If there is then hold my hand until I save you and you save me while I look at you and you look at me with your strange eyes"
We talked and talked for moments like those type of talks found only on worn pages of books...
I sighed because it wasnt a dream....or atleast this time it didnt feel like one
I said to myself,"maybe this one is gonna stay"
For a moment I decided to not fight myself on this
To not trouble myself of crushing this hope I feel
You walked with me
I could have sailed the whole world just by walking with you .....
A stone baulked me and as soon as it did you held me....tight.....
I felt like with a grip you erased all the hurt that came with living
But it was too Good to be true
I always knew that....and I know now cause I woke up.....i woke from a dream that felt so real
Who was i fooling???
The joke is all on me...
Only a broken can love me that much
But the ones who are broken dont wanna be found🖤🥀🥀🥀
-Yeab T🥀-

I don't care where as long as you are with me and I am with you and you let me,let me love you like a woman.let me hold you like a baby. Let me shine like a diamond. Let me be who I am meant to be🖤🖤🖤

Give yourself time to heal

A work from months ago that still has too much parts of me in it

I am just a girl who noone wants to get close
I am a living
yet
dying soul
who noone wants to know their day about
who noone wants to touch
a simple yet sophisticated girl
but not in an appealing more like in a repealing way
more like in a way a stranger spits on as they pass by
hearing disgust in their words

I wanted to find a home..for me to lay my head on
and to do that I searched for all the ones who are broken like me
Who long for an island to rest upon
I searched in hope of finding someone lost enough to know the emptiness in me
maybe everyone has a home
maybe it's just me
who got it all wrong
who got an abnormal gene
maybe it's me who ruined me
-Yeab T🥀-

Arthur:I was wondering if you could ask the doctor to increase my medication?

Arthur you are on 7 different medications.surely they must be doing something

Arthur:I JUST DON'T WANNA FEEL SO BAD ANYMORE.🖤🖤🖤🖤