I cannot put into word what this made me feel.

In love with all of these☝️🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

"Is that why you play your music so loud? To drown out the thoughts, the voices screaming so loud that you cant think properly." He asked after he motioned me to unplug one of my earphone. I looked at him silently for a bit to figure out his intention and all could read was pure curiosity.
"Yeah" I said with a blank expression.
"Its so sad, that you have to keep yourself constantly busy just to feel sane." Indeed I thought.

This👆 is exactly what I felt when I wrote this👇

I keep on running from facing myself but the moment I get tired and look inside myself all I see is SADNESS.
-Yeab T♥️

Here is a work that took 10 minutes and huge pain to write. Again it's not good but its something

Most nights my dad goes outside and stares at the dark sky. Does he feel unimaginable darkness inside himself? Is that why he likes the darkness so much...because its somehow a reflection of what he feels inside? Did that darkness somehow passed through our bloodline and found a home in my heart? I ask myself. And wait for answers. But I then realize I didnot utter those words for him to hear? I don't have the strength in me to ask him what makes him feel absent or tired or lost out of nowhere. He wouldn't know why. He just knows how to feel. Did he by any chance saw that same sadness through my eyes and struggled to ask me? Neither me nor him would ever know. But moments will pass and we will find ourselves loving eachother unconditionally... mending eachother's broken heart through our hugs and his beautiful smile. On rare days we would stare at each other in a crowded room and speak in words only understood by us. The words wont have sound but they will be more sensible to our hearts than anything we have ever spoken our entire life.we will find solace in eachother and we will forgive ourselves for the pain we unknowingly caused eachother. And lastly fill our eyes with tears for the darkness we are soon to pass through my womb.
-Yeab T🖤-

You don't know what this life can do to a fool like me🖤🖤🖤

You dont know what a love can do to a fool like me🖤🖤🖤

You dont know what this world can do to a fool like me🖤🖤🖤