and she finally gave up, she dropped the fake smile as a tear ran down her cheek and she whispered to herself,

"i cant do this anymore"

• @regretletters •🥀

He never looked for depression, but it was too much hope that threw him into that dark corner.
- Albert Camus

To people who do not like the status quo, who are not motivated by laws or attracted by social appearances, who care about things that do not mean anything to others. Who everyone thinks are quiet, who gets silent when everyone talks about them. Those who smile when they are attacked and demeaned by those who do not understand them. To those who spend their day in isolation, those who are used to escaping from gatherings. The owners of the names that were attributed to them without the people, "the psychopath, the abnormal, the complex, the introverted, the silent, the mysterious, the suspicious, the malicious, the crazy."
To those who were accused by everyone of negativity and escaping from situations, those who were mocked by everyone for their strange ideas and strange habits, those with strange opinions, those with simple smiles, those with variable moods and different tastes. They are the ones who stand before their actions and wonder which faith they follow, which religion they believe in, and which country they belong to. My dear, wherever you are on this earth, glory to you, and I wish you peace and salvation all, for fear of defiling your pure hearts with the mold that surrounds you.

It must be possible to swim the ocean of the ones you love without drowning.

It must be possible to swim without becoming water yourself.

I keep finding stones tied to my feet.

God,why have you created me so eternally dissatisfied.

So frightened,so bitter.

Why must I suffer so hellishly for my insignificance.

This darkness its eating me up from the inside and however fast I run I just can't seem to lose it.

It's a silent killer.

Everyday I am losing part of me I didn't know I had lost.

How much more days can I last? How many nights am I going to cry blood?

Is this how heartbreak feels?

Maybe she's not the best at being loved, but she is pretty amazing at loving.

Everytime I feel good I think it will last forever but it doesn't