“sorrow found me when i was young.
sorrow waited. sorrow won.”

• @regretletters •

I just wanted to feel wanted.

I just feel like I am sinking and I don't know what to do. This disease it just comes whenever it wants and takes whatever it feels like taking. I have tried to run to the arms of the ones I love it didn't help. I tried shoving a bunch of pills inside my body but I think the darkness has won over that too. I don't know who I am without it. I don't know how to run from it. It's like if I didn't force myself with the distractions it would cripple me. And all I do is just run from the pain or hide from it. I fear what would happen to my poor soul if I ever get sick of running. I don't know how to help myself nor do I have the power for it. I believe the darkness doesnt get to win but I also believe I have lost the fight way before.
@wordsofpain

my biggest problem is that part of me doesn't want to get better.
part of me found comfort and familiarity in the absolute suffering and agony.
IT'S HOME.

• @regretletters •

It's odd how we feel everything and suddenly nothing.

Does it depress you? To know how truly alone you are.

There is like this deep burning, writhing thing inside of me that does not want this pain and suffering to end.

i am always in this state of anxiety...uk like the kind that makes me feel like i can never experience life to the fullest whether its happiness joy sadness ....its like my life line is restricted by a straight line which i cant pass no matter wt but suddenly disappears when im in pain ..maybe thats why i always self sabotage ..trying to get away from the anxiety and pain is the only way i know how to

sometimes i sit
alone beneath
the stars and think
of the galaxies
inside my
heart and truly
wonder if anyone
will ever want
to make sense of
all that i am

scars on THEIR body,
doesn't give YOU the permission to ask "WHAT HAPPENED".

• @regretletters •

“it scares me to think about how i’m only alive because i don’t want to hurt the people i love”

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