The truth is that childhood doesn’t end as soon as you “grow up.” It’s going to end numerous times over during your whole life. Every single time your pet dies. And once again, you’re 10 years old, losing your best friend. You’ll see someone you love in a hospital bed and understand what mortality really means. People who mean the whole world to you will pass away. You’ll understand that love, safety, and comfort aren’t guaranteed - they’re earned, and sometimes they vanish. You’ll never be “old enough” to stop feeling emotions the same way you did when you were a child. And every time it happens, it’ll feel just like the first. Like the ground disappears, like no one warned you. But you’ll keep going. You’ll carry all those endings with you. And maybe that’s the real growing up - not the end of childhood, but learning how to live with its echoes.

Got a bad feeling that I'm about to break. Been a good streak, but the pressure's overweight. Is it even good for my head to keep track? If I'm gonna snap necks, then I gotta snap back. Got a bad feeling I'm gonna lose the lead. Have I burnt all the bridges? Bite the hand that helps me, give it finger stitches. I have seemed to run out of excuses of why I am this way.

No revenge, because i have the purest soul. No revenge, because I am the love I give, not the love I receive. No revenge, because my heart is tender and remembers only the moments that felt like light. No revenge, because my heart was made to cherish beauty, not to hold on to pain. No revenge, because i know what it feels like, and i don’t want to put people i cared about through this. No revenge, because I want to move on. No revenge, because I would’ve never done that to you. No revenge, because I will be forever the most loyal and loving person. If you decided to treat me badly and do me dirty - that’s your loss, not mine.

Little Women (2019)
Some of my favourite scenes from my favourite film. I’ve noticed that whenever I watch something that sticks in my mind, it sincerely inspires me. I love art! :(

I love getting to know people. I want to know everything about you: what you love, what makes you happy, what inspires you. Tell me about things that spark your eyes. Let me listen to your favourite songs and watch me learn more about your favourite artists so I can understand you better. Allow me to watch you playing the games you love. Share with me the dreams that have stayed in your memory for a long time. Let’s watch your favourite films together, and explain to me why they caught your eye. I will never turn my back on you just because of the way you are, I promise.

We often find ourselves disappointed with other people. This is common in constant experience. We set high expectations for others, usually expecting them to be the way we imagined in our head, but when the reality hits, we are usually those ones who get hurt. But there is a thing that has to be always understood and remembered. People will never see the world with your eyes. They will never be you. They don’t feel things on the same level as you do and never will. They were raised differently, they have different families, they had their own original life experiences.

The truth is humans are flawed, ALL humans are flawed. Whenever you put someone on the pedestal, you start to believe that they can do no wrong, but the truth is across the board. Everyone is flawed, and it's inevitable that at some point someone that you put on a pedestal will disappoint or hurt you. And i think that at times it’s okay to be disappointed, it’s okay to see the other side of the medal. If you're expecting too much out of people all the time, you will constantly be left disappointed, and it will make you unhappy and miserable, you will think that everyone in the world sucks. When you're open-minded about what comes to you, you will be left in a much happier headspace regardless of the outcome.

I also think that setting expectations too high for other people can be a sign of some issue. In your mind, it could be a sign that you're relying on external sources for your happiness. Because when you’re the source of your own fulfilment, you're much less likely to create unrealistic expectations for others.

Let people be flawed, let them be their own way, let them express themselves. Be open-minded, don’t put anyone on a pedestal, that’s when life will feel easier for you. It’s such a hard thing to learn, but it is needed to allow yourself to grow.

VOLUME 1: Nothing matters.

“Nothing matters” is an existential reflection. It’s about despair, standing face-to-face with the vastness of life and realizing how small everything feels. A weight that empties the future of shape, where each step falters and every choice unravels. This volume breathes the moment of losing yourself - when the world drifts away, and you begin to question everything you do.

Don’t stop creating art. Whatever you make or want to - you do it for yourself. Not for your classmates, not for your friends, not for people who might judge you. For yourself. People on the internet might find themselves in what you do, and they’ll follow you. Think about that.

We all are scared of sharing our thoughts and ideas with others, trust me on that. But fear is a part of progress. Post that scrapped edit, post that long text you put your soul into, post that drawing you made at 2am. You don’t have to be Picasso or Mozart to allow yourself to express yourself. Your art is valid. You put yourself into it, it took you time, and you made progress. At the end of the day, it’s better than sitting and doing nothing just because you’re afraid to be judged. Everything is cringe, so what? Don’t be scared to show yourself. Let people follow you, don’t hide because of the thought that “you’re not enough”. You’re enough. Don’t stop creating.