I don't like fake people who do anything to show themselves as powerful

I wish I was one of those ppl whose life is drama every day fr I’m so tired of living like this

Sometimes I feel like everyone’s living a life that actually means something while I’m just stuck in the same place watching everything pass me by I want something to happen something messy and unforgettable anything that makes me feel alive again I’m so tired of pretending I’m ok with this boring routine cuz honestly I don’t even recognize myself anymore⸮ ﹖ ︖ ⁇ ¿ ‽ ？