I wanted to be loved and all i got was pain.

You don't understand.
And I can't explain.

I wanna heal from the things that I don't talk about.

I don't know how far I have to go to feel I'm enough.

I have this idea of the person I want to be, but no matter how hard I try, I can't reach it.

I feel like I'm already running out of time.

I wish i can just throw up everything I've locked inside me for years.

I never got the chance to know you, so i fell in love with the idea of you.

How do i forgive myself for not becoming the person i wanted to be?

Please don't expect to much from me.

Fr

Living is exhausting.

Was it just a dream?

I'm scared this is all i will ever be.