Forwarded from The Dollar Vigilante (Official Channel)
The same people that believe Russia is committing war crimes also believe in taking experimental gene altering vaccines.
Flashback:
https://veilofreality.com/2020/07/02/how-to-balance-speaking-truth-and-self-care-tcm-37-part-1
https://veilofreality.com/2020/07/02/how-to-balance-speaking-truth-and-self-care-tcm-37-part-1
Piercing the Veil of Reality
How to Balance Speaking Truth and Self-Care | TCM #37 (Part 1)
How can we speak truth in times that call for conscious action while also balancing our lives with self-care to take care of inner life as well? Bernhard and Laura share ways so that you can find the balance between speaking out and self-care on this episode…
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BOUNDARIES, OCCULT FORCS, AND A MURDEROUS SPIRIT
This quote below about "A MURDEROUS SPIRIT" from a Christian perspective relates to what we see on social media and what is coming through the pathological left (and the MSM) in light of virtue signaling, moral superiority, shaming/attacking/gaslighting anyone who doesn't go along with the official narrative of Covid, Ukraine, etc.
It relates to what I've written about before from an occult and Integral Yoga (Sri Aurobindo) perspective, namely that the woke left/liberals have become vessels for occult hostile forces (i.e. "Satan" through the Christain lens) to work through them. You can also interpret it as being infected by "wetiko", the mind virus/predator that has taken over people and turns them into Agent Smith, unconscious tools/instruments for the matrix (and the Deep State/neo-Marxist NWO on a 3D level).
As I wrote in a past article a couple of years ago as well, the virtue signaling and false morality of the woke left has become the perfect vehicle for these asuric occult hostile forces to act their will through, as they try to maintain total power and hope for complete take-over in one last battle cry and trauma installment program on all of humanity.
Essentially right now, on occult levels, this is not about the classical left vs. right political paradigm, nor is it really about Democrats vs. Republicans even though on a surface level it may seem that way. The corrupted nature of the Left/Democrats is being used as vessels for the matrix occult forces to maintain their power in their global take over.
This is about ignorance vs truth, the anti-divine hostile forces vs. the divine forces, STS vs. STO – whatever name you may want to give this collective battle of Dark vs Light. This is the time to make a choice and everyone will be eventually forced to make a choice – not by some outside authority but via inner alignment.
In the meantime, it is of utmost importance to make strong BOUNDARIES with toxic people who are possessed by this "MURDEROUS SPIRIT", i.e. anyone who attacks you (even through just passive-aggressive "spiritual/political" correct lingo), shames, slanders you, gossips about you, talks shit about you behind your back (on social media or in person), trying to put you down to feed the predator/entity they are literally possessed by.
You CANNOT talk reasonably to such people. There is "no one home", so don't take the bait to engage. Any true conscious embodied fulfilled snd reasonable person with self-respect would never engage in these tactics of slander, gossip, shaming, and attack. Moreover, do NOT engage in the same behavior as well. Don't get tempted to do the same, otherwise, wetiko and the matrix "have you", hijacking your own mind and soul.
On social media, this means block/delete without feeling guilty about it nor do you need to have to give any explanation. Be unapologetically YOU! In real life, it may also mean letting go of friends and even distance yourself from family members if they exhibit wetiko symptoms. That's where real "social distancing" comes in handy. As a good friend once told me, "love them from a distance". Be in warrior mode and say NO! This IS warfare on multi-dimensional occult levels.
- Bernhard Guenther
@timeoftransition
This quote below about "A MURDEROUS SPIRIT" from a Christian perspective relates to what we see on social media and what is coming through the pathological left (and the MSM) in light of virtue signaling, moral superiority, shaming/attacking/gaslighting anyone who doesn't go along with the official narrative of Covid, Ukraine, etc.
It relates to what I've written about before from an occult and Integral Yoga (Sri Aurobindo) perspective, namely that the woke left/liberals have become vessels for occult hostile forces (i.e. "Satan" through the Christain lens) to work through them. You can also interpret it as being infected by "wetiko", the mind virus/predator that has taken over people and turns them into Agent Smith, unconscious tools/instruments for the matrix (and the Deep State/neo-Marxist NWO on a 3D level).
As I wrote in a past article a couple of years ago as well, the virtue signaling and false morality of the woke left has become the perfect vehicle for these asuric occult hostile forces to act their will through, as they try to maintain total power and hope for complete take-over in one last battle cry and trauma installment program on all of humanity.
Essentially right now, on occult levels, this is not about the classical left vs. right political paradigm, nor is it really about Democrats vs. Republicans even though on a surface level it may seem that way. The corrupted nature of the Left/Democrats is being used as vessels for the matrix occult forces to maintain their power in their global take over.
This is about ignorance vs truth, the anti-divine hostile forces vs. the divine forces, STS vs. STO – whatever name you may want to give this collective battle of Dark vs Light. This is the time to make a choice and everyone will be eventually forced to make a choice – not by some outside authority but via inner alignment.
In the meantime, it is of utmost importance to make strong BOUNDARIES with toxic people who are possessed by this "MURDEROUS SPIRIT", i.e. anyone who attacks you (even through just passive-aggressive "spiritual/political" correct lingo), shames, slanders you, gossips about you, talks shit about you behind your back (on social media or in person), trying to put you down to feed the predator/entity they are literally possessed by.
You CANNOT talk reasonably to such people. There is "no one home", so don't take the bait to engage. Any true conscious embodied fulfilled snd reasonable person with self-respect would never engage in these tactics of slander, gossip, shaming, and attack. Moreover, do NOT engage in the same behavior as well. Don't get tempted to do the same, otherwise, wetiko and the matrix "have you", hijacking your own mind and soul.
On social media, this means block/delete without feeling guilty about it nor do you need to have to give any explanation. Be unapologetically YOU! In real life, it may also mean letting go of friends and even distance yourself from family members if they exhibit wetiko symptoms. That's where real "social distancing" comes in handy. As a good friend once told me, "love them from a distance". Be in warrior mode and say NO! This IS warfare on multi-dimensional occult levels.
- Bernhard Guenther
@timeoftransition
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A MURDEROUS SPIRIT
“Our Creator God gives life and breathes life. Wherever there is life, God is somewhere behind its genesis. He had some impact, some influence, something to do with that creation. Jesus spoke of Satan as a murderer (John 8:44) who is obsessed with death. Murder is more than wanting someone’s lungs to stop breathing; there is the murder of ministry, the murder of reputation, the murder of happiness, and the murder of peace. In Matthew 5:21–22, Jesus expands the definition of murder to include malicious intent.
When you disagree with a person who has done evil, he or she often won’t just disagree with you and let it go. Some will hate you to the point of murder, merely for pointing out their sin: “For John had been saying to Herod, ‘It is not lawful for you to have your brother’s wife.’ So Herodias nursed a grudge against John and wanted to kill him” (Mark 6:18–19). It’s not enough for a toxic person to say, “You and I will have to agree to disagree.” If your beliefs make them feel guilty, they want to remove your voice and influence, even if that means removing . . . you. We see a similar spirit to Herod’s unleashed today, with large swaths of people who don’t think Christians who hold certain views should be able to voice their opinions. They want them to disappear or to be completely silenced. They will use shame or the law, but they will be vicious nonetheless.
The best label for this silencing is social murder. Healthy people can disagree and walk away. Toxic people harbor a murderous spirit, at least in the sense of wanting to completely discredit you and shut you up. The apostle John warned, “Anyone who hates a brother or sister is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life residing in him” (John 3:15). When you read the book of Acts, the story of the early church is the story of opponents using every means—the law, persecution, ridicule, shaming, name-calling, and often physical murder—to get them to shut up.
Sometimes it looks like demonic opposition. But the end goal of this toxicity was always the same: Stop! Be silent. Kill what you’re doing and saying, or we’ll kill you."
- Gary Thomas, When to Walk Away, Chapter: A Murderous Spirit
@timeoftransition
“Our Creator God gives life and breathes life. Wherever there is life, God is somewhere behind its genesis. He had some impact, some influence, something to do with that creation. Jesus spoke of Satan as a murderer (John 8:44) who is obsessed with death. Murder is more than wanting someone’s lungs to stop breathing; there is the murder of ministry, the murder of reputation, the murder of happiness, and the murder of peace. In Matthew 5:21–22, Jesus expands the definition of murder to include malicious intent.
When you disagree with a person who has done evil, he or she often won’t just disagree with you and let it go. Some will hate you to the point of murder, merely for pointing out their sin: “For John had been saying to Herod, ‘It is not lawful for you to have your brother’s wife.’ So Herodias nursed a grudge against John and wanted to kill him” (Mark 6:18–19). It’s not enough for a toxic person to say, “You and I will have to agree to disagree.” If your beliefs make them feel guilty, they want to remove your voice and influence, even if that means removing . . . you. We see a similar spirit to Herod’s unleashed today, with large swaths of people who don’t think Christians who hold certain views should be able to voice their opinions. They want them to disappear or to be completely silenced. They will use shame or the law, but they will be vicious nonetheless.
The best label for this silencing is social murder. Healthy people can disagree and walk away. Toxic people harbor a murderous spirit, at least in the sense of wanting to completely discredit you and shut you up. The apostle John warned, “Anyone who hates a brother or sister is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life residing in him” (John 3:15). When you read the book of Acts, the story of the early church is the story of opponents using every means—the law, persecution, ridicule, shaming, name-calling, and often physical murder—to get them to shut up.
Sometimes it looks like demonic opposition. But the end goal of this toxicity was always the same: Stop! Be silent. Kill what you’re doing and saying, or we’ll kill you."
- Gary Thomas, When to Walk Away, Chapter: A Murderous Spirit
@timeoftransition
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“One of most important things I've learned:
Severe personality problems find *camouflage.* No one thinks "I'm a sadist" or "I'm a malignant narcissist."
They find a belief system/social group that validates their most hateful, destructive impulses & construes them as virtues.
The most toxic and hateful people in the world are 100% convinced they fight for what is true and right.
They find a way to give free rein to their cruelty, to attack, to treat others cruelly and viciously. *And they find allies to cheer them on* who also believe they are on the side of all that is true and good.
For colleagues looking for more theoretical explanation, the psychological processes are splitting, projection & projective identification. Splitting means not recognizing one's own capacity for hate, cruelty, and destructiveness. The person is blind to the bad in themselves.
Instead, they project the badness onto some designated other. And this other person, via the defense of projection, is now seen as the repository of all that is bad and evil and necessary to destroy. That's the projection.
The person now feels fully justified in unleashing their viciousness and hate on the other person, who is now seen (via projection) as someone monstrous who must be destroyed. If the person who is projected on responds to the provocation with anger, this is now seen as further confirmation of how hateful and destructive they are (this is what is called is "projective identification.") The end result is that the person can deny their own sadism, cruelty, and hate—while simultaneously acting it out without restraint.
And feel themselves to be 100% on the side of truth and right as they do it.”
- Jonathan Shedler, Psychologist
@timeoftransition
Severe personality problems find *camouflage.* No one thinks "I'm a sadist" or "I'm a malignant narcissist."
They find a belief system/social group that validates their most hateful, destructive impulses & construes them as virtues.
The most toxic and hateful people in the world are 100% convinced they fight for what is true and right.
They find a way to give free rein to their cruelty, to attack, to treat others cruelly and viciously. *And they find allies to cheer them on* who also believe they are on the side of all that is true and good.
For colleagues looking for more theoretical explanation, the psychological processes are splitting, projection & projective identification. Splitting means not recognizing one's own capacity for hate, cruelty, and destructiveness. The person is blind to the bad in themselves.
Instead, they project the badness onto some designated other. And this other person, via the defense of projection, is now seen as the repository of all that is bad and evil and necessary to destroy. That's the projection.
The person now feels fully justified in unleashing their viciousness and hate on the other person, who is now seen (via projection) as someone monstrous who must be destroyed. If the person who is projected on responds to the provocation with anger, this is now seen as further confirmation of how hateful and destructive they are (this is what is called is "projective identification.") The end result is that the person can deny their own sadism, cruelty, and hate—while simultaneously acting it out without restraint.
And feel themselves to be 100% on the side of truth and right as they do it.”
- Jonathan Shedler, Psychologist
@timeoftransition
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I wrote this today a year ago.....and as we can see, it is only intensifying:
Shadow work is the name of the game during these times and no amount of food, vitamins, masks or moving your assets/money into gold/silver/bitcoin/assets, self-isolation or whatever you try to do (or “they” tell you to do as you obey) externally to “protect” yourself from (disease or economic meltdown) will “save” you in the long run for the world is changing big time and it won’t just get back to “normal” in a few weeks. Sure, use common sense and take care of yourself and each other on a practical level without feeding into the fear frenzy. But it’s not about getting attached to either Hope or Fear.
This is about Death and Rebirth and facing the shadow of yourself (personal) and of the world (collective) for both are interconnected and cannot be separated. The old needs to die before the new can be reborn. It’s an inner alchemical process. The 3d/4d agenda is very obvious, producing an artificial crisis and faux pandemic to further the globalist NWO agenda.
However, from a higher perspective of the Divine and the evolutions of consciousness, so-called “evil” has its purpose as a trigger to awaken us and face that which have looked away from for so long. It is the Kali Yuga, after all, the dark age of ignorance and pure materialism. The shadow needs to be faced and transmuted in order for the supramental consciousness to anchor itself and spiritualize matter and humanity, the alchemical marriage of the inner male and female – body, mind, and spirit.
This IS an opportunity for alchemical transformation but it is also an internal job for the outside will always reflect the inside. The mud and forces of the unconscious and the underworld are rising up; all that you/I/we have suppressed (fears, wounds, and traumas) is coming to surface, begging to be integrated, healed, and transmuted so we can ascend to a higher state of Being while transforming the world as frequency anchors.
In fact, the supramental consciousness of the Divine is also descending, stirring up the shadow of the collective to be transmuted into Light. This is not an over night process. There is a long road ahead of us and disillusionment is part of the process. As the Mother (and Sri Aurobindo) prophesized, we are approaching the Dark Night of Civilization. The collective Dark Night of the Soul. A necessary process for the outer reflects the inner, as above, so below. The only way out is in and through.
- Bernhard Guenther
veilofreality.com
@timeoftransition
Shadow work is the name of the game during these times and no amount of food, vitamins, masks or moving your assets/money into gold/silver/bitcoin/assets, self-isolation or whatever you try to do (or “they” tell you to do as you obey) externally to “protect” yourself from (disease or economic meltdown) will “save” you in the long run for the world is changing big time and it won’t just get back to “normal” in a few weeks. Sure, use common sense and take care of yourself and each other on a practical level without feeding into the fear frenzy. But it’s not about getting attached to either Hope or Fear.
This is about Death and Rebirth and facing the shadow of yourself (personal) and of the world (collective) for both are interconnected and cannot be separated. The old needs to die before the new can be reborn. It’s an inner alchemical process. The 3d/4d agenda is very obvious, producing an artificial crisis and faux pandemic to further the globalist NWO agenda.
However, from a higher perspective of the Divine and the evolutions of consciousness, so-called “evil” has its purpose as a trigger to awaken us and face that which have looked away from for so long. It is the Kali Yuga, after all, the dark age of ignorance and pure materialism. The shadow needs to be faced and transmuted in order for the supramental consciousness to anchor itself and spiritualize matter and humanity, the alchemical marriage of the inner male and female – body, mind, and spirit.
This IS an opportunity for alchemical transformation but it is also an internal job for the outside will always reflect the inside. The mud and forces of the unconscious and the underworld are rising up; all that you/I/we have suppressed (fears, wounds, and traumas) is coming to surface, begging to be integrated, healed, and transmuted so we can ascend to a higher state of Being while transforming the world as frequency anchors.
In fact, the supramental consciousness of the Divine is also descending, stirring up the shadow of the collective to be transmuted into Light. This is not an over night process. There is a long road ahead of us and disillusionment is part of the process. As the Mother (and Sri Aurobindo) prophesized, we are approaching the Dark Night of Civilization. The collective Dark Night of the Soul. A necessary process for the outer reflects the inner, as above, so below. The only way out is in and through.
- Bernhard Guenther
veilofreality.com
@timeoftransition
“The Asuras and Rakshasas etc. do not belong to the earth, but to supraphysical worlds; but they act upon the earth life and dispute the control of human life and character and action with the Gods. They are the Powers of Darkness combating the Powers of Light. Sometimes they possess men in order to act through them, sometimes they take birth in a human body.
The ordinary Asura is not an evolutionary but a typal being and represents a fixed principle of the creation which does not evolve or change and is not intended to do so. These Asuras, as also the other hostile beings, Rakshasas, Pisachas and others resemble the devils of the Christian tradition and oppose the divine intention and the evolutionary purpose in the human being; they don’t change the purpose in them for which they exist which is evil, but have to be destroyed like the evil.
The Asura has no soul, no psychic being which has to evolve to a higher state; he has only an ego and usually a very powerful ego; he has a mind, sometimes even a highly intellectualised mind; but the basis of his thinking and feeling is vital and not mental, at the service of his desire and not of truth. He is a formation assumed by the life-principle for a particular kind of work and not a divine formation or a soul.
It is not surprising that they should be powerful in a world of Ignorance, for they have only to persuade people to follow the established bent of their lower nature, while the Divine calls always for a change of nature. It is not to be wondered at that the Asura has an easier task and more momentary success in his combinations. But that temporary success does not bind the future.”
- Sri Aurobindo
@timeoftransition
The ordinary Asura is not an evolutionary but a typal being and represents a fixed principle of the creation which does not evolve or change and is not intended to do so. These Asuras, as also the other hostile beings, Rakshasas, Pisachas and others resemble the devils of the Christian tradition and oppose the divine intention and the evolutionary purpose in the human being; they don’t change the purpose in them for which they exist which is evil, but have to be destroyed like the evil.
The Asura has no soul, no psychic being which has to evolve to a higher state; he has only an ego and usually a very powerful ego; he has a mind, sometimes even a highly intellectualised mind; but the basis of his thinking and feeling is vital and not mental, at the service of his desire and not of truth. He is a formation assumed by the life-principle for a particular kind of work and not a divine formation or a soul.
It is not surprising that they should be powerful in a world of Ignorance, for they have only to persuade people to follow the established bent of their lower nature, while the Divine calls always for a change of nature. It is not to be wondered at that the Asura has an easier task and more momentary success in his combinations. But that temporary success does not bind the future.”
- Sri Aurobindo
@timeoftransition
Flashback to an essay I wrote 5 years ago….the writing has been on the wall for a long time…as it starts to become more obvious by the day. The end game is intensifying:
As the cosmic energies of our planet become increasingly-infused with the contrasting expression of light and dark frequencies during this Time of Transition, many of us (whether we are conscious or not of this elevation in contrasting vibrations) are experiencing breakdowns and breakthroughs at an accelerated pace. We are being pushed to awaken – to align with the divine force.
This process is bringing up anything that is not of the same frequency that our spirit is currently “downloading” in order to be transmuted. Many things are transpiring and shifting on multi-dimensional levels which lie outside of our conscious awareness. The strong currents of these galactic waves are pressuring us to ride the flow of transformation.
Any resistance and/or desperate need to control this process (based on fear) can cause us to get sucked into the undercurrent and be held under, until such a time as we can get back on the wave again, i.e. learn our lessons and keep doing the necessary clearing work in order to embody the higher frequencies.
From a hyperdimensional perspective, the anti-divine, dark occult forces are operating on overdrive, trying to lock as many human beings as possible into a frequency prison (which will be heightened with the dawning of the Transhumanism/A.I. agenda, which enables “soul snatching” to occur) so as to counteract the “Divine Awakening Force” and thus ensure they do not lose their “food” source.
Yet, this increase of friction and suffering has a teaching-function – as part of the evolution of consciousness – and serves as a catalyst and opportunity for internal alchemical initiation for those people who have the soul-seed capacity to truly start questioning everything they ever believed in/were told/taught by official culture. Most importantly, it can activate an engagement in sincere self-work and embodiment practices (soul growth/integration).
The choice to “answer the call” is, as always, within each Individual, and also depends upon his/her soul potential (and personal lessons), for not everyone is here to “awaken” in this current cycle (and there is no judgment around that) as we are also in the midst of a Timeline-Reality split. This is, after all, the apocalypse, which means “unveiling”, not “destruction” (and “occult”, for that matter, means “hidden”, nothing inherently to do with “evil” intent)….
- Bernhard Guenther
@timeoftransition
Full article:
https://veilofreality.com/2017/01/29/the-perilous-path-towards-awakening/
As the cosmic energies of our planet become increasingly-infused with the contrasting expression of light and dark frequencies during this Time of Transition, many of us (whether we are conscious or not of this elevation in contrasting vibrations) are experiencing breakdowns and breakthroughs at an accelerated pace. We are being pushed to awaken – to align with the divine force.
This process is bringing up anything that is not of the same frequency that our spirit is currently “downloading” in order to be transmuted. Many things are transpiring and shifting on multi-dimensional levels which lie outside of our conscious awareness. The strong currents of these galactic waves are pressuring us to ride the flow of transformation.
Any resistance and/or desperate need to control this process (based on fear) can cause us to get sucked into the undercurrent and be held under, until such a time as we can get back on the wave again, i.e. learn our lessons and keep doing the necessary clearing work in order to embody the higher frequencies.
From a hyperdimensional perspective, the anti-divine, dark occult forces are operating on overdrive, trying to lock as many human beings as possible into a frequency prison (which will be heightened with the dawning of the Transhumanism/A.I. agenda, which enables “soul snatching” to occur) so as to counteract the “Divine Awakening Force” and thus ensure they do not lose their “food” source.
Yet, this increase of friction and suffering has a teaching-function – as part of the evolution of consciousness – and serves as a catalyst and opportunity for internal alchemical initiation for those people who have the soul-seed capacity to truly start questioning everything they ever believed in/were told/taught by official culture. Most importantly, it can activate an engagement in sincere self-work and embodiment practices (soul growth/integration).
The choice to “answer the call” is, as always, within each Individual, and also depends upon his/her soul potential (and personal lessons), for not everyone is here to “awaken” in this current cycle (and there is no judgment around that) as we are also in the midst of a Timeline-Reality split. This is, after all, the apocalypse, which means “unveiling”, not “destruction” (and “occult”, for that matter, means “hidden”, nothing inherently to do with “evil” intent)….
- Bernhard Guenther
@timeoftransition
Full article:
https://veilofreality.com/2017/01/29/the-perilous-path-towards-awakening/
Piercing the Veil of Reality
The Perilous Path Towards Awakening
As the cosmic energies of our planet become increasingly-infused with the contrasting expression of light and dark frequencies during this Time of Transition, many of us (whether we are conscious or not of this elevation in contrasting vibrations) are experiencing…
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Wow... long read but incredible story from a detransitioner:
“My name is Helena, and as of this writing I’m a 23-year-old woman who, as a teenager, believed I was transgender. In the years since detransitioning (stopping testosterone treatment and no longer seeing myself as transgender), I’ve become interested in exploring why, in the last decade, nearly every English-speaking country has seen a meteoric rise in adolescents believing they are transgender and pursuing cosmetic medical and surgical interventions. Here, I’d like to go over how and why I came to see myself as transgender, the process of transitioning, and the events leading up to and following my detransition.
The short version of my detransition story for those who want the bare details is that when I was fifteen, I was introduced to gender ideology on Tumblr and began to call myself nonbinary. Over the next few years, I would continue to go deeper and deeper down the trans identity rabbit hole, and by the time I was eighteen, I saw myself as a “trans man”, otherwise known as “FtM”. Shortly after my eighteenth birthday, I made an appointment at a Planned Parenthood to begin a testosterone regimen. At my first appointment, I was prescribed testosterone, and I would remain on this regimen for a year and a half. It had an extremely negative effect on my mental health, and I finally admitted what a disaster it had been when I was 19, sometime around February or March 2018. When the disillusionment fully set in, I stopped the testosterone treatment and began the process of getting my life back on track. It has not been easy, and the whole experience seriously derailed my life in ways I could never have foreseen when I was that fifteen-year-old kid playing with pronouns on Tumblr.”
https://lacroicsz.substack.com/p/by-any-other-name?utm_campaign=post
“My name is Helena, and as of this writing I’m a 23-year-old woman who, as a teenager, believed I was transgender. In the years since detransitioning (stopping testosterone treatment and no longer seeing myself as transgender), I’ve become interested in exploring why, in the last decade, nearly every English-speaking country has seen a meteoric rise in adolescents believing they are transgender and pursuing cosmetic medical and surgical interventions. Here, I’d like to go over how and why I came to see myself as transgender, the process of transitioning, and the events leading up to and following my detransition.
The short version of my detransition story for those who want the bare details is that when I was fifteen, I was introduced to gender ideology on Tumblr and began to call myself nonbinary. Over the next few years, I would continue to go deeper and deeper down the trans identity rabbit hole, and by the time I was eighteen, I saw myself as a “trans man”, otherwise known as “FtM”. Shortly after my eighteenth birthday, I made an appointment at a Planned Parenthood to begin a testosterone regimen. At my first appointment, I was prescribed testosterone, and I would remain on this regimen for a year and a half. It had an extremely negative effect on my mental health, and I finally admitted what a disaster it had been when I was 19, sometime around February or March 2018. When the disillusionment fully set in, I stopped the testosterone treatment and began the process of getting my life back on track. It has not been easy, and the whole experience seriously derailed my life in ways I could never have foreseen when I was that fifteen-year-old kid playing with pronouns on Tumblr.”
https://lacroicsz.substack.com/p/by-any-other-name?utm_campaign=post
Substack
By Any Other Name
The story of my transition and detransition.
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"Being honest and sincere means confronting our inner experience and our outer life in a truthful way. Being sincere means not lying to ourselves, not rationalizing, not comforting, not postponing, not bandaging difficulties. Being sincere means grappling with our life and coming to terms with it with a sense of integrity and self-respect.
Over time we gain self-respect by grappling with our deficiencies, by learning that we can do it. If we run away from the difficult parts, we’ll feel like a coward. If we feel like a coward, we won’t respect ourselves. And we can’t lie to ourselves about what we’re actually doing; on a deep level, we know the truth. So we have to grapple with the difficulties in a courageous way. That’s how we gain respect and value. If we run away from things, there’s no way we can value ourselves.
To have a sense of integrity, we have to prove to ourselves that we’re worthy of it. I don’t mean we have to prove something to our superego. I mean we have to bring forth what we are, bring forth all our resources to confront the difficulties that we have in our life. As far as I know, we can’t become real, can’t become truthful embodiments of reality unless we take the risks to live that way. We must make the necessary sacrifices to be and to live that reality.
It’s not likely to happen that you sit there meditating, have wonderful experiences, and then suddenly you’re a real human being. Living according to the truth requires sacrifices and risks. The Work is a self-confrontation, an attempt to be more and more truthful and sincere with yourself. We gain integrity and value by living according to the truth. The Work is not separate from being real, from living our lives. The Work simply guides us about how to go about living life in a real way.
For me, it’s sometimes much more satisfying to say one real word to somebody than to go on a vacation and have fun. Pleasure and relaxation are necessary and important, but it’s much more valuable to me if I can confront a situation squarely, and be what I can be in that moment."
~ A.H. Almaas
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Over time we gain self-respect by grappling with our deficiencies, by learning that we can do it. If we run away from the difficult parts, we’ll feel like a coward. If we feel like a coward, we won’t respect ourselves. And we can’t lie to ourselves about what we’re actually doing; on a deep level, we know the truth. So we have to grapple with the difficulties in a courageous way. That’s how we gain respect and value. If we run away from things, there’s no way we can value ourselves.
To have a sense of integrity, we have to prove to ourselves that we’re worthy of it. I don’t mean we have to prove something to our superego. I mean we have to bring forth what we are, bring forth all our resources to confront the difficulties that we have in our life. As far as I know, we can’t become real, can’t become truthful embodiments of reality unless we take the risks to live that way. We must make the necessary sacrifices to be and to live that reality.
It’s not likely to happen that you sit there meditating, have wonderful experiences, and then suddenly you’re a real human being. Living according to the truth requires sacrifices and risks. The Work is a self-confrontation, an attempt to be more and more truthful and sincere with yourself. We gain integrity and value by living according to the truth. The Work is not separate from being real, from living our lives. The Work simply guides us about how to go about living life in a real way.
For me, it’s sometimes much more satisfying to say one real word to somebody than to go on a vacation and have fun. Pleasure and relaxation are necessary and important, but it’s much more valuable to me if I can confront a situation squarely, and be what I can be in that moment."
~ A.H. Almaas
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🔥NEW EPISODE🔥
HEALING FROM PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE
Bernhard and Laura talk about how we can heal and recover from the past two years of psychological warfare and trauma installments. They share practical tips on how to clear negative emotions, get out of fear, and trauma freeze responses in light of the bottom-up and top-down approaches.
They talk about upcoming astrological transits, the cosmic weather ahead, and how to use these energies creatively to empower yourself.
Furthermore, they share compelling new research about the effects of the COVID Vaccines from the Spiritual Perspective and the consequences on the Soul, Spirit, and Life after Death.
https://veilofreality.com/2022/03/21/healing-from-psychological-warfare-tcm-80-part-1/
HEALING FROM PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE
Bernhard and Laura talk about how we can heal and recover from the past two years of psychological warfare and trauma installments. They share practical tips on how to clear negative emotions, get out of fear, and trauma freeze responses in light of the bottom-up and top-down approaches.
They talk about upcoming astrological transits, the cosmic weather ahead, and how to use these energies creatively to empower yourself.
Furthermore, they share compelling new research about the effects of the COVID Vaccines from the Spiritual Perspective and the consequences on the Soul, Spirit, and Life after Death.
https://veilofreality.com/2022/03/21/healing-from-psychological-warfare-tcm-80-part-1/
Piercing the Veil of Reality
Healing From Psychological Warfare | TCM #80 (Part 1)
Bernhard and Laura talk about how we can heal and recover from the past two years of psychological warfare and trauma installments. They share practical tips on how to get out of fear, and trauma freeze responses, upcoming astrological transits, and more.
“The spirits of darkness are now among us. We have to be on guard so that we may realize what is happening when we encounter them and gain a real idea of where they are to be found.
The most dangerous thing you can do in the immediate future will be to give yourself up unconsciously to the influences which are definitely present. For it makes no difference to their reality whether they are recognized or unrecognized.
It will be the main concern of these spirits of darkness to bring confusion into the rightful elements which are now spreading on earth, and need to spread in such a way that the spirits of light can continue to be active in them. They will seek to push these in the wrong direction. I have already spoken of one such wrong direction, which is about as paradoxical as is possible.
I have pointed out that while human bodies will develop in such a way that certain spiritualities can find room in them, the materialistic bent, which will spread more and more under the guidance of the spirits of darkness, will work against this and combat it by physical means.
I have told you that the spirits of darkness are going to inspire their human hosts, in whom they will be dwelling, to find a vaccine that will drive all inclination towards spirituality out of people's souls when they are still very young, and this will happen in a roundabout way through the living body.
Today, bodies are vaccinated against one thing and another; in future, children will be vaccinated with a substance which it will certainly be possible to produce, and this will make them immune, so that they do not develop foolish inclinations connected with spiritual life — ‘foolish’ here, of course, in the eyes of materialists.
The whole trend goes in a direction where a way will finally be found to vaccinate bodies so that these bodies will not allow the inclination towards spiritual ideas to develop and all their lives people will believe only in the physical world they perceive with the senses.
Out of impulses which the medical profession gained from presumption — oh, I beg your pardon, from the consumption they themselves suffered — people are now vaccinated against consumption, and in the same way they will be vaccinated against any inclination towards spirituality.
Only superficial people can believe that this war, which is not a war of the old kind, will tomorrow or the day after be followed by a peace of the old kind. You have to be very superficial to believe this. Many will believe it, of course, if outer events appear to be in accord with the notions some people have; they will fail to realize what actually lies dormant beneath the surface.”
- Rudolf Steiner, “Lecture 13: The Fallen Spirits' Influence in the World”, Dornach, 27 October 1917
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The most dangerous thing you can do in the immediate future will be to give yourself up unconsciously to the influences which are definitely present. For it makes no difference to their reality whether they are recognized or unrecognized.
It will be the main concern of these spirits of darkness to bring confusion into the rightful elements which are now spreading on earth, and need to spread in such a way that the spirits of light can continue to be active in them. They will seek to push these in the wrong direction. I have already spoken of one such wrong direction, which is about as paradoxical as is possible.
I have pointed out that while human bodies will develop in such a way that certain spiritualities can find room in them, the materialistic bent, which will spread more and more under the guidance of the spirits of darkness, will work against this and combat it by physical means.
I have told you that the spirits of darkness are going to inspire their human hosts, in whom they will be dwelling, to find a vaccine that will drive all inclination towards spirituality out of people's souls when they are still very young, and this will happen in a roundabout way through the living body.
Today, bodies are vaccinated against one thing and another; in future, children will be vaccinated with a substance which it will certainly be possible to produce, and this will make them immune, so that they do not develop foolish inclinations connected with spiritual life — ‘foolish’ here, of course, in the eyes of materialists.
The whole trend goes in a direction where a way will finally be found to vaccinate bodies so that these bodies will not allow the inclination towards spiritual ideas to develop and all their lives people will believe only in the physical world they perceive with the senses.
Out of impulses which the medical profession gained from presumption — oh, I beg your pardon, from the consumption they themselves suffered — people are now vaccinated against consumption, and in the same way they will be vaccinated against any inclination towards spirituality.
Only superficial people can believe that this war, which is not a war of the old kind, will tomorrow or the day after be followed by a peace of the old kind. You have to be very superficial to believe this. Many will believe it, of course, if outer events appear to be in accord with the notions some people have; they will fail to realize what actually lies dormant beneath the surface.”
- Rudolf Steiner, “Lecture 13: The Fallen Spirits' Influence in the World”, Dornach, 27 October 1917
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