how foolish it is to disregard our own faults and let the other person bear all the blame when relationships - of any sort - fail.

the other side may be thinking the same way, by the way.

we may not articulate it to each other properly, but we may genuinely believe that it is the other person’s thoughtlessness, carelessness, ignorance or bad temperament to blame. or, they are simply not “our person.” not “the one,” even. we should’ve known better, we’re way too different. they will never understand us anyway.

except, there is no such thing as “the one.”
life would be so much easier if we let go of the idea that there is some magical unicorn of a person waiting for us far away who will magically appear in our life when time is due. and then, and then all our problems would be resolved as they’d understand us and accept us fully. with all our weak and broken sides, with all our resistance to open up or inability to talk through problems.

relationships, again of any sort, are usually just two people trying to figure out life and navigate through it with some degree of grace and sanity. some do better than others. some are more self-reflective and capable of seeing others too. but it all boils down to the fact that none of us are “the ones.” not to anyone.

but we can be the ones willing to accept all the above facts and still choose to put in effort, to understand and to work with problems side by side with someone who is equally willing to do the same for us. they may not understand all our sides, be that foolish or slightly wicked ones, and they may not know how to respond properly when problems arise. but with enough time and effort, you may become a team. and a team is always better than an imaginary unicorn.

happy upcoming holidays.

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one, i sneaked out of a model casting today ahahah. basically one of the organizers of the runway show saw me a few days ago in black dress and was like “you’re participating too!” (a certain famous designer is coming to uzbekistan?) my protests that these things aren’t for me fell on deaf ears as my manager standing next to me was all in on it, more excited than i was.

i went there. saw 30+ girls preparing for the casting in bare tights and short tops in such cold weather. their skinniness made it all feel even colder. i looked around and quietly walked away. didn’t pick up anyone’s phone calls.

instead went to bloomberg class.

two, one of my colleagues told she didn’t know i use makeup. didn’t know id be so disappointed😭.
those 5 minutes spent in the morning before the mirror seem all so.. like, why do i do it all? for comparison, first photo with and second without makeup. i think i mainly hide my pimples if i’ve got some.

third
let’s talk about economy now ahahah.

you see that green spike in the first photo? that’s when Trump started a trade war in 2025 where US economy dropped so sharply it lost a quarter of its value. but the moment he sent a twitter saying “it’s a good time to buy”, the prices just skyrocketed. and yes, his buddies made at least hundreds of millions thanks to the spike. and overall, usually rich people get to their prime wealth thanks to buying super cheap (maybe negative price) and selling when it surges back up.

talking about negative pricing. you probably have heard that negative price means the company pays you for buying their product, basically. they lose more money when they sell than when they don’t sell. but the world has never seen negative prices for oil till COVID19 hit. suddenly, we didn’t need oil. no cars, buildings closed down, no previous economic activity. price gets low, but the oil producers didn’t expect it to get THAT low of course. and at some point, the cost of keeping oil (inventory cost) got higher than the production cost, so they began selling at such huge discounts that the price went below zero.

oil is very sensitive to such shocks, actually. wars (Russian war, current war in Iran). but it also goes closely correlated to gas. so gas prices usually affect oil prices and vice versa.

btw
talking of people making money during wars or crises.
it was after 9/11 that Ethical Trading was introduced to somehow regulate all these opportunists. or earlier, actually. but got especially tighter with 9/11. not like it makes much difference, tho. a common rule of thumb says that when a stock becomes “squeezed” (as in the second photo), it will move sharply either upward (about 80% of the time) or downward (about 20%). think of it like a squeezed balloon, the air has to escape somewhere.

and that leads to bubbles.
economic bubble, or market mania, is (as you probably already know) when stock is sold/bought at a price that far exceeds its actual value. demand drives, not financial growth.

in 2001 we got dot com bubble.
2008 - housing.
2015 - chinese stock bubble.
then COVID19 crash in 2020.
and we might get another wave if the current war extends further and deeper. my professor says economists expect another crisis coming up in 2030ish. either from this war or AI. but AI is doing good so far, useful. people must go absolutely crazy for it to be a true bubble burst. we always go up and down tho, every 15 or so years.

oh btw
Uzbekistan joining WTO is another opportunity. yes, we get greater choices as consumers, but the cost of living is expected to rise too for sure.
especially housing.
i mean
real estate is always a growing deal. it’s never late to buy one. and especially now that it’s certain to rise.

@summernotes