As soon as i finish my studies, i will work to my bones to fulfill my dream of living off the grid in complete isolation and in serene wilderness. I need to get away.
Modern society repels me. It seems false, like a facade pulled over it to hide the true reality. I want to experience the thrill of the hunt, i want to know what it is like to face an agiated hostile predator like a grizzly, i want to hike up the tallest mountain i can find and shout as loud as i can out of pure joy.
This life feels too artificial and fake, like it is going to collapse at any minute, revealing the raw nature of our world. I keep fantasizing about living in a post-apocalyptic scenario where nature overtakes the fake world built before, the concrete pavement crooked, shattered with vegetation bursting from the cracks underneath.
It does not make any sense to me how we have reached a point in time where nature is not even a part of most of people's everyday life. It is a never-ending nightmare, and i need to escape this hell before it kills me. Being stuck in society with a structured schedule that tells me when i have to be somewhere at a certain time every single day of the week is taking a severe toll on my mental health. I feel like i am running endlessly on a fucking hamsterwheel.
I want true freedom. I do not want to know what day it is. Neither do i want to know what weather it is going to be tomorrow, because everyday is a surprise. All i need to know is what chores needs to be taken care of, like needing to feed my hens and goats.
I need to get away from where i am as soon as i can before i go insane.

"We need the tonic of wildness...At the same time that we are earnest to explore and learn all things, we require that all things be mysterious and unexplorable, that land and sea be indefinitely wild, unsurveyed and unfathomed by us because unfathomable. We can never have enough of nature."
-Henry David Thoreau

Typical people are not like us. They need the influence and dependance on others to even remotely comprehend why things are the way they are. The difference is that people like us have always had this nagging feeling at the back of the head telling us that something is terribly wrong. That feeling has always felt very natural and familiar to us.
I walk through populated urban areas with pure disgust on my face. It feels repulsive and unnatural. People who have never experienced this before will never truly understand what it is like.
Typical people need guidance, but we must come to the terms and accept that we are different and we have always been different.

"There is no law that says we have to go to work every day and follow our employer’s orders. Legally there is nothing to prevent us from going to live in the wild like primitive people or from going into business for ourselves. But in practice there is very little wild country left, and there is room in the economy for only a limited number of small business owners. Hence most of us can survive only as someone else’s employee."

- Theodore John Kaczynski | Industrial Society and Its Future

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐚 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐭. 𝐅𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐚 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬, 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐝𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥-𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐠𝐨𝐚𝐥, 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐛𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐧 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞.

"I suggest that one of the biggest mistakes modern American revolutionaries make is that, in the name of "tolerance," they let anyone and everyone of a vaguely rebellious disposition join their movements. The result is that they get diluted, or even swamped, by large numbers of make-believe revolutionaries for whom rebellion is only a game. Even if it sounds "intolerant," revolutionaries must form a movement that is exclusive to the extent that it incorporates none but real revolutionaries. Only in this way can the movement have cohesion and the capacity for vigorous action".

- Theodore John Kaczynski | 29-11-1998 Letter to John Zerzan (Considered founder of Anarcho-Primivitism)

𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐜𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐬

"A revolutionary movement must have courage. A revolution in the modern world will be no dinner party. It will be deadly and brutal. You can be sure that when the technoindustrial system begins to break down, the result will not be the sudden conversion of the entire human race into flower children. Instead, various groups will compete for power. If the opponents of technology prove toughest, they will be able to assure that the breakdown of the technosystem becomes complete and final. If other groups prove tougher, they may be able to salvage the technosystem and get it running again. Thus, an effective revolutionary movement must consist of people who are willing to pay the price that a real revolution demands: They must be ready to face disaster, suffering, and death".
- Theodore John Kaczynski | Road to Revolution

New technologies often appear optional when first introduced, but eventually society restructures itself in such a way that these technologies become necessary just to survive. Take the internet for example, it would be almost impossible to get by without using the internet. Even if one completely eliminates internet usage in his personal life, most jobs still require internet usage. There is simply no way of getting around the internet. The same would apply for transhumanism. Likely even moreso, since the changes brought by transhumanism are even greater than those which were brought by the internet. Even if in the highly unlikely scenario that transhumanism was optional, due to it increasing the efficiency of the human by such a large magnitude, individuals who embraced transhumanism will be propagandized as superior, with those remaining in their natural forms socially ostracized. We see this today as those without the newest belongings, especially those that are technological, as less than others.

- Potash | Transhumanism: Fools Gold

"Force and violence are the ultimate sanction. When a major social conflict cannot be resolved through compromise, the issue is settled by physical force or the threat of it. As I argued in 'Industrial Society and Its Future', if we try to compromise with technology we play a losing game. The system never is and never will be satisfied with any stable situation - it seeks always to expand its power and will never permanently tolerate anything that remains outside of its control. Thus the conflict between us and the system is irreconcilable and in the end can be resolved only through physical force".

- Theodore John Kaczynski | In Defense of Violence

"No phone, no pool, no pets no cigarettes. Ultimate freedom. No longer to be poisoned by civilization, he flees, and walks alone upon the land to become lost in the wild"

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐲𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐦'𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭

"The System needs an orderly, docile, cooperative, passive, dependent population. Above all it requires a nonviolent population, since it needs the government to have a monopoly on the use of physical force. For this reason, integration propaganda has to teach us to be horrified, frightened, and appalled by violence, so that we will not be tempted to use it even when we are very angry. (By "violence" I mean physical attacks on human beings.) More generally, integration propaganda has to teach us soft, cuddly values that emphasize nonaggressiveness, interdependence, and cooperation.

On the other hand, in certain contexts the System itself finds it useful or necessary to resort to brutal, aggressive methods to achieve its own objectives. The most obvious example of such methods is warfare. In wartime the System relies on agitation propaganda: In order to win public approval of military action, it plays on people's emotions to make them feel frightened and angry at their real or supposed enemy.

In this situation there is a conflict between integration propaganda and agitation propaganda. Those people in whom the cuddly values and the aversion to violence have been most deeply planted can't easily be persuaded to approve a bloody military operation.

Here the System's trick backfires to some extent. The activists, who have been "rebelling" all along in favor of the values of integration propaganda, continue to do so during wartime. They oppose the war effort not only because it is violent but because it is "racist," "colonialist," "imperialist," etc., all of which are contrary to the soft, cuddly values taught by integration propaganda".

- Theodore John Kaczynski | The System's neatest trick (Technological Slavery, Volume 1)
https://www.thetedkarchive.com/library/the-system-s-neatest-trick

The system must collapse sooner rather than later so that much of the biosphere can be saved, whereas if it were to collapse later there will not be anything left of the biosphere to support life on earth.