there is no point of me being alive, no friends, no love, no money, no ambitions, no motivation, no hope, everyone thinks that im a creep, bad at talking to females, mentally ill, 0 good memories since 2018, everything i do is pointless, im definition of lost potential, constant mental breakdowns, loneliness eats me up inside, cant do basic things and it only gets worse.

i hope one day i wont be scared to do that