Sometimes it occurs to me that nothing was ever really “wrong” with me outside of believing I needed to change when actually the situation didn’t suit me
I feel unspeakably lonely. And I feel - drained. It is a blank state of mind and soul I cannot describe to you as I think it would not make any difference. Also it is a very private feeling I have - that of melting into a perpetual nervous breakdown. I am often questioning myself; what I further want to do, who l further wish to be; which parts of me, exactly, are still functioning properly
i got that deer in me (watery brown eyes and the constant urge to run into incoming traffic)
sometimes i feel so unlike myself for so long it feels like there isn't a self to return to
If you want to be happy, you have to be happy on purpose. When you wake up, you can't just wait to see what kind of day you'll have. You have to decide what kind of day you'll have
The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward