nvm we dont talk anymore

Dear Saturn,

My heart breaks every time I see him, yet I still wish to cross paths with him whenever I leave the house. My wardrobe is filled with dresses in his favorite color because he once complimented me when I wore that color long ago. I watched his favorite series, started watching cricket because he is a huge fan, and learned all the songs by his favorite singer. I even learned his native language. It's funny how my attendance became regular suddenly, hoping to see him in the classroom.

He didn't wish me on my birthday, so I hesitated to wish him on his. But alas, people in love are fools. I wished him anyway.

"Don't be this nice to me. I haven't done anything for you to be this egoless," he said.

How do I tell him that my ego can never come before him? How do I tell him that if he decides to come back to me, I'll still welcome him with open arms? How do I tell him that I hope our paths cross every time I leave my house?

come on, make it easy, say i never mattered.

Just say it so I don't have look back anymore and drown in my own grief. Just say it so I do not feel dead and draught. Just say it so I know it was always me who kept loving and loving. But even if you say it, how can I forget all those nights you curled up beside me and lay yourself vulnerable? How can I forget all those words you whispered into my ear the night we never slept. How? How can I believe you saying it to my face? How can I unlove you? Is it even possible?

eye contact is the most romantic thing.

ig it was my fault, i gave u way more attention than u even deserved

wdym by 2024 didnt end in june??

Can't put my thoughts into words I want to scream and pull my hair out I'm so fucking mad

Dear saturn,

Happy birthday to me, I don't know how I spent this day, but i know this that throughout the day I kept missing you.
Do you not even remember my birthday?

when they’re so fake that u don’t even know what personality to use

Dear saturn,

I know it's gonna be weird that "i" am saying this but life isn't always perfect yet it is so beautiful. (unless i got to deal with some dickheads) but there are beautiful people also. I mean look at you.

Dipped my hands in holy water just to touch him.

Funny that most of these relationship stays only until the 'chase' is over lmao

Dear saturn,

I act like i dont care at all and I put up this big hugeass wall of toughness. Like I don't want somebody's affection but in reality, I am just too "scared". Afraid of the possibility of being loved by someone that I fear they'll eventually let me down.

sum ppl got huge egos despite being nobodies like what’s with the baseless confidence?

forgive me lord for I have imagined a life far more soft and tender than the one you created for me