Dear saturn,
my hands are trembling, my whole body is frozen and internally im screaming "help" but idk whom to approach for help. i want to end my life just right now, but i cant to that, that would not be right. idk what the fuck is this feeling rn, i want to cry, cry a lot. i want to run away, from everyone and never face them again. i would prefer to die than facing this feeling over and over again. no one would understand, nobody. i dont want to face it alone, please. i want to hide, forever, and never return. my heart is very heavy, my chest is shrinking and it aches. i would have cut myself open by now, i'd have sliced my wrist with my pen or the blade by now but i dont want to do that, that'd be of no help. i cant do that, please don't let me do that. i am trying to think rationally. i need help. please help me saturn, please.
my hands are trembling, my whole body is frozen and internally im screaming "help" but idk whom to approach for help. i want to end my life just right now, but i cant to that, that would not be right. idk what the fuck is this feeling rn, i want to cry, cry a lot. i want to run away, from everyone and never face them again. i would prefer to die than facing this feeling over and over again. no one would understand, nobody. i dont want to face it alone, please. i want to hide, forever, and never return. my heart is very heavy, my chest is shrinking and it aches. i would have cut myself open by now, i'd have sliced my wrist with my pen or the blade by now but i dont want to do that, that'd be of no help. i cant do that, please don't let me do that. i am trying to think rationally. i need help. please help me saturn, please.
Ab teri shikayat kis se karien
Har shakhs ko kaha tha tujhse behtar koi nahi
Har shakhs ko kaha tha tujhse behtar koi nahi
Dear Saturn,
You wrote poems for me. I used to think it was just because you loved writing poetry, and mentioning me was as common as anything.
Today, I tried writing a poem about you. I spent hours with a piece of paper, thinking of you, recalling every little moment we spent together, every detail of your eyes and lips, and the emotions I felt when we were together. As I wrote about how much I love you and how my heart shrinks in your absence, I was overwhelmed and excited to show it to you, until i realised
how you wrote those poems for me, and how I didn’t even bother to read them, my excitement vanished away. I never realized how deeply in love you were with me, or how much effort it took to turn your emotions into poetry, until I tried it myself.
I’m sorry, my love. Come back. I wrote a poem for you
You wrote poems for me. I used to think it was just because you loved writing poetry, and mentioning me was as common as anything.
Today, I tried writing a poem about you. I spent hours with a piece of paper, thinking of you, recalling every little moment we spent together, every detail of your eyes and lips, and the emotions I felt when we were together. As I wrote about how much I love you and how my heart shrinks in your absence, I was overwhelmed and excited to show it to you, until i realised
how you wrote those poems for me, and how I didn’t even bother to read them, my excitement vanished away. I never realized how deeply in love you were with me, or how much effort it took to turn your emotions into poetry, until I tried it myself.
I’m sorry, my love. Come back. I wrote a poem for you
I'll paint your canvas in shades of my own blood as long as you kiss the gashes away
i learned clash of clans and codm just because he used to play them.
this motherfucker is now playing with my life.
this motherfucker is now playing with my life.