i'm. not. feeling. like. myself. and. nothing. ever. seems. to. help.

may those who want my presence but not my depth never find me.

I love you so much; I care about you more than I probably should. But I do. You made me lighter and happier somehow for a moment; I thought I’d never be happy again until you changed everything. But for God’s sake, don’t break my heart. Don’t make my flaws turn into something beautiful and then break all the beauty you’ve once made. God knows I’ve suffered enough heartbreaks.

Bdsa: been depressed since April

i would've texted you again but you seemed so unbothered by my absence, and that killed something inside of me.

Biggest fear.

You know guys

I really had that one toxic online friend.

It was so consuming.

They kept asking for forgiveness, and when I gave them that hoping they'd change. They didn't. They made things worse, twisted everything I said, making my other friends turn against me.

I don't know if that was forgiving or just too naive of me to believe that they could change.