’I pray you do not fall in love with me, for I am falser than vows made in wine.‘

Running on sabotaging thoughts

"A writing will come out of this experience", she says, utilizing her life for a writing. ኑሮዋን የምትኖረው፣ ተጨምቆ የሆነ ፅሁፍ እንዲወጣው ይመስላል። She lives her own life as someone observing it. And you would think that this would go away the deeper the experience is. When she's touched in a way her understanding cannot comprehend, she would be silently in awe, simply in the moment...and she is. She is in the moment. Just more like a reporter than a live-er. The more she's in awe, the more she hopes for an awesome writing to come out of her later.ከነፍሷ ስቃይ ቃላት እያለበች...የውበት ናፋቂ፣ የውበት ባሪያ...Isn't that a sad way of living looking at life?

i get so triggered by the smallest boom sound or the sound of a plane passing by like i was in the vietnam war in my past life or sth.

I was thinking about the wind today.
Yeah, I know, it’s a silly thought.
Who on earth would think of this
when there are so many other things to think about?
But I did.
Cuz I’m silly…
in a cute way.😊

I was really curious.
About the way it blows,
how it carries things,
how it moves with freedom
all over the place.

I saw some pollen going by
just floating,
like it was on a mission
to find its mate,
to make some baby flowers.
A whole new world
being created by the wind.

And I also saw waste
papers and wrappers
blown across people’s yards,
making a mess.
My neighbor came out and said,
“God dam* this wind takes everything!”

And I just stood there…
thinking
The flowers are celebrating.
They're ready for new life.
But the trash?
That’s just someone else’s leftover story
landing where it wasn’t meant to be.

And it hit me…
We can’t blame the wind.
It’s just passing by.
The things it carries
they use it
as their way to change their place.

Then I thought about time.
Time is like the wind.

It’s not good.
It’s not bad.
It just moves.
It carries.
It shifts.
And everything it touches
either finds a new beginning
or becomes someone else’s mess.

It’s all in how we ride it.
And what we let it carry.

I have so many fucks to say to the world ! You ain't gonna take me down with a riffle(one math equation)

I may look like I yap honestly I do but when I find another whole yapper that exceeds me in my profession I just...stuff his mouth with a gag

Yk wht I don't want consequences to bit my ass

Spreading misinformation

Don't quit your job to focus on school babes.
You and me both know you won't focus.

I need to have a crush on somebody so the world makes sense again🤔🤔

I'll be facing consequences tmrw if I don't sleep soon

I'm facing the consequences

When ppl say I'm crazy but they didn't know I could go crazier

Me laughing at jokes thrown way back before you were born

Why do you get sad at losing things when nothing in the world actually belongs to you.

I no longer know If I wish to drown myself in love, vodka or the sea.
- Franz Kafka

Insomnia

Insomnia feels like I’m lost between days, where time becomes meaningless and all I have are my endless thoughts for company

you romanticize psychotic/toxic people and then you complain and victimize yourself when they show a psychotic/toxic behavior? what did you expect? that they're doing this for aesthetics?

I'm the eldest child of the eldest child of the eldest child. I am not a person, I bear a generation's worth of soreness and memoir.