what if i disappear to become the mysterious other child that my parents never speaks of

is this channel a result of the peer pressure from society forcing me into believing that people might be interested in the sick and twisted chemical reactions happening in my brain and finally having me believed that someone somewhere could possibly care about my quickly declining mental health and the eventless boring daily life that i fail to lead and survive merely by romanticising it from the moment i wake up to the moment i finally rest my head on my weary pillow to sink into the same nightmares that meet me without fail night after night?
Of course not! What was that-

I be finding out everything just by being quiet
Do you think they are lying
Stay silent and watch them break out on their own

"what are you going to do about it"
Nothing actually, I'm just going to write about you in my private daily without mentioning your name.

having a quiet life is so.. underrated. i don’t mean it in the sense that people who’re open and loud and busy aren’t important, but when our culture has significantly put so much emphasis on the definition of success as fame, extraordinary accomplishments, greatness and importance and excessive wealth, i think there is so much power to be found in our own anonymity. in the silence of life. in not being constantly perceived, analyzed and performing for the world. in being able to take a walk, smile at strangers and just notice the world without all that noise. taking the biggest pleasure out of the smallest joys, like a cup of coffee or blowing out birthday candles. knowing that our lives don’t have to be a grand spectacle for others in order to have worth and cause a good impact.

Some things really do dissolve with time..

Being sane is overrated

This generation does and says anything to avoid being vulnerable like wtf do you mean 'her face card is lethal' just say she's pretty or her face is beautiful or whatever I don't get it:/

I'm kinda like the total package that got fucked up through shipping and handling.

Shout-out to the pain that gave me understanding.

People with no character development scare me. How can you be the same person you were 3 years ago with no change of mindset or growth

i've discovered a new banger artist recently but i won't share it with any of you

I literally saw people who don't know who Sherlock Holmes is or they haven't watched harry potter at any point in their lives, nothing is capable of surprising me anymore.

I swear I'm so full of love and passion but I'm sooooo bothered like I'm so good at being bothered you can just breathe and there you have it you have bothered me

You cannot gaslight me. I will just agree with you. You think I'm crazy? Same

i don't know but with feelings like these there's always imposter syndrome that hits me

one day the "i don't need to study, it's gonna be easy" is gonna bite me in the ass

茶化す, Yuka Kasai, 2018.

It's about time I started following in the footsteps of my ancestors (one more minor inconvenience i swear)