This week has been too much for me, a lot to be anxious about but hey God is good. Remember sometimes it's okay to lose control, you don't have to put everything in order. Just breathe and focus on today alright? Sleep well🤍

Once again here to remind you, your country needs your prayer. All this mess, injustice, and death is maddening💔

This is really heartbreaking, we've lost such a difference maker and a needed soul. Rest easy zemi💔🕊

Eid Mubarak to everyone celebrating, have a good one fam🤍

I was just having a normal Sunday when I started reading this book and suddenly my brain is twitching. Maybe I've said this before, I'm going to say it anyways. I love it when people try to pull you out from the struggles you're facing, being there for you and almost all the time whispering "hey life is beautiful, don't rob yourself the chance of living it by reminiscing your traumas"

You see some of us may have loving parents, a very beautiful house with cars, fridge full of our favorite foods, friends that love and support us, our closets filled with the expensive brands plus whatever I didn't mention and some of us don't. Some of us grew up in a broken family, depraved of love and affection, learning how to take care of ourselves at a very young age, food and clothes not being that much of a concern.

Life isn't beautiful for everyone, it's a dream for some and a nightmare for the others.

People who tell you to be yourself.

Maybe they don't get it. Maybe they do not know there is something very painful about being YOU. Maybe they have no idea how hard it is for you to look into the mirror and realize that person is no other but you. They do not know what it is to try to look at your past and remember nothing other that an ugly childhood. They can't comprehend how it feels to have a glance at your past and face the absence of good memories. Trauma has changed you, poverty may have crushed you, you may well have lost your joy to the fight of ur parents you grew up hearing. ክሉው የላቸውም What it is to walk around with no passion for life to be void of good feelings. Owning a heavy heart and a dry brain. Maybe people who tell you to be yourself don't know how painful it is to actually Be You 'cause they're not you. ልትቀርባቸው ምትፈልጋቸውን ሰዎች እንደ ጳጉሜ አየር ሚለዋወጥ ሙድህ እንዳያስቀይማቸው ፈርተህ መራቅ ትርጉሙ አይገባቸውም። ጥሩ ቦንድ መፍጠርና በአግባቡ ሰስቴይን ማድረግ መሳን ምን እንደሆነ አያውቁትም። ራስን መጥላት ታሪክን መጥላት ትላንትን መጥላት ሌላ መሆንን መመኘት ህመሙ ሊገባቸው አይችልም። አይዞህ።

Or maybe they got a point. They maybe trying to tell you to face the reality. And heal gradually. To make a better tomorrow. You deserve it mate. Be yourself.

@FamilyPain
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This right here, lord‼️

Anywaysss sleep well, have yourself a great week, eat, drink water and take care of yourself alright?

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Those of you who didn’t vote rock as your fave genre I’m just going to believe y’all voted on “I listen to everything” and pretend I’m not hurt✌🏾

Moving on I hope you liked my playlist of this week, I’ll try to recommend music with your range of favorites.

Stay grinding you got this, sleep well🤗

Sitting and watching these through breaks me into pieces, they don't deserve any of it. I'm not a parent but I have the experience of being a child. It's portrayed in our minds that finishing school, getting a job, getting married and having kids is the ultimate definition of life. So people jump into it without the tiniest bit of reluctance. Not bothering to check on themselves if they're fit enough to be a partner or a parent just focusing on the material faction of the situation. "Am I financially stable?" Is the question that usually gets asked but not "Am I mentally stable?"

Children are completely pure and raw when they're put into this world, once they become adults they're the fruits of their parents decisions and how they guided them through their oblivious days. And with complete genuineness I say parents pay the least attention to this or they're not aware. I've seen parents fight in front of their infants and raise hands at each other with the thought their children won't "listen" or "notice" or "understand" but they do! Even the little bit of a disturbed facial expression distresses them let alone fights.

Having a child is a responsibility not something that's marked on a to do list just because society told us it's a necessity to have a successful life.

Being placed in the foster care system right after they're born or worse being hospitalized. Having anxiety attacks and being alert to their environment with the fear of harm. I sometimes can't handle my responses or reactions to some situations let alone babies facing these difficulties without even knowing what they're facing. Just to clear it up I'm in no way disrespecting parents even if they don't act like one they're still parents and they deserve an ounce of respect. But bringing a child into this world isn't a simple hoop you jump through but a lifetime of responsibilities and so much more.