I'm soft on you because I want to

He was soft on me because he wanted to

No one is deserving of anything
As troubled humans
We're just willing to soften
To make each other's lives bearable

I'm gonna sleep 'cause you live in my daydreams

I don't get people who ask for recommendations, I always know what I want, I know what would I like and dislike

I wonder a lot
How can he look me in the eye
How can he stand there and wave at me
Does he not feel shame?
Or perhaps he had forgotten
Maybe he thinks I myself had forgetten
Maybe he normalized it, maybe avoiding it
So I keep wondering

It's been ten years already
I should let it go
But how can I?
With him wandering freely
Everyone is speaking highly of him
None of them knows how disgusting he is
How of a threat he is
So I'm in my room staring at my wall
With my chest pain and, lack of appetite

Probably, I think

How happy you looked watching me running down the hill to play with you

They tell me I should stop writing about them after their death
I'll only stop writing and mentioning them after my own death

You think I enjoy being this clingy? (I do)

Depressed? Depressed who we're doing fine, except for my rotten orange

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