I have finally realized that it's time for me to move on with my life. I can't sit in this dark hole forever. Life is too short to be stressing or crying over someone that clearly doesn't even give a damn if I'm even alive or not. I've realized that I looked dumb as fuck trying to love someone when I didn't even love myself. I have to understand that at the end of the day, the only person I can rely on is myself. Because some people are just here with me temporarily, not permanently. People come and go, and things do not last forever in this world, and that's something I'm also finally realizing and accepting. Some things just aren't worth my energy or my time anymore. So for my own sanity, I'm going to focus on myself and I'm going to be okay regardless.