The tall black spirit, I wish I could know what does it need from me

I can feel my heart dying

But how can I ''feel'' ?

Let's do it

♡

I'm used to the headache

My dear you're the only one I want to protect

I can't worry about my future I can't even stand my present

I wish I can throw you up the same way I throw my food all the day

I was supposed to be your little girl you were supposed to protect me love me and appreciate me why father, why

I can not stand this pain anymore

I could love you as much as my heart could give, and that still wouldn't be enough for you

I see that having motherly love is a luxury I can't afford, no one will calm down the crying child inside me

I'm afraid to get closer to people because I feel like people will leave me when they really know me

I don't blame him, I don't blame my parents, I don't even blame the people who bullied or hurt me
Although I'm too tired I can't fix myself no one is helping I can not go forward

Such a crybaby

I keep hurting the people I love no matter how hard I'm trying to change, I hate my existence