They keep using me, fooling me, but here I go

In the end I'm not the kind person

I opened my arms for you, you punched me straight on the heart

At least I was his favorite grandchild when he was alive

Too afraid to face the miserable reality? I invited you to hide between my arms
But how could I tell you that you're the one who caused this miserable reality

I'll just have fun with my alters

Hello night, are you gonna stab me too?

I'm sleepy but sad, I'm always sad

I don't even see clearly or pronounce words right
I'm so exhausted