Coming back home after an exhausting day realizing that he's not here to greet me

My bed feels so comfy
Under my eyes I can sense the pain
I'm losing it again

I'm not having fun

I hate you but I'm always sorry

I feel the darkness above my chest, since my childhood

I be refusing help then start crying

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you
I try to make it through these lies, and that's all I do

Just don't deny it
Don't try to fight this, and deal with it
And that's just part of it

I'm getting buried in this place
I got no room, you're in my face
Don't say anything just go away

I'm rushing myself yes

If I don't I'm gonna get fooled again

Never trust your tongue when your heart is bitter

What have I done
What have I become