Shutting myself down to stop thinking

I'm beautiful, I know cause it's the season
But what am I to do with all this beauty?
Biology, I am an organism, I'm chemical
That's all, that is all

How I feel this river rushing through my veins
With nowhere else to go, it circles 'round

Tomorrow's gonna be better

I wanna lose my memory
Idc about the good memories just let me get rid of the bad ones

Ah my dear diaries only god knows how much I've fallen

"I dreamed of you.." ugh shit

No it was actually good

I'm frosting
I don't need a man to make my life sweet
Prince charming
Just isn't the one that I think I need
You're thirsty
You think I give out all my shit for free
I'm bursting
Out laughing at idiocy

I need a gingerbread man
The one I'll feed
A gingerbread man
The one I'll eat
One who's always crazy
Never calls me baby
That's the one that I want
All you boys are not him, not him

Can't you see?
I only want the ones who never see me
But I'm happy
I love playing these games until my heart bleeds
It bleeds jelly
'Cause you don't want someone to eat your cookie
Can someone please
Find him for me, find him for me?

I'm the icing covering his body
I wanna hold him so close, so tightly
Baby, how do I say this politely?
Love me harder and don't be nice, please
I wanna feel your crumbs on my body
I want to break you in pieces, fight me
Baby, don't be so scared of biting
Want to eat each other into nothing

I need a gingerbread man
The one I'll feed
A gingerbread man
The one I'll eat
One who's always crazy
Never calls me baby
That's the one that I want
All you boys are not him, not him