Too many voices what should I do??!

: only listen to yourself (so I could manipulate you in silence)

Only if the world actually was like my imagination

"And I hated myself for leaving, why couldn't I be the kind of person that stays?"

"I'm stuck here in a cycle and I'm getting older but my heart is getting soft dark spots on it like a fruit that has gone bad or is soft because too many hands have squeezed it but then put it back down."

My  God, I'm so lonely
So I open the window
To hear sounds of people
To hear sounds of people

Venus, planet of love
Was destroyed by global warming
Did its people want too much, too?
Did its people want too much

And I don't want your pity
I just want somebody near me
Guess I'm a coward
I just want to feel alright

And I know no one will save me
I just need someone to kiss
Give me one good honest kiss
And I'll be alright

Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Ooh, nobody, nobody, nobody

Are you actually sad and worthless?
Tbh no
Lol I thought so

we didn't drift apart.
you abandoned me.

I’m completely terrified of being like this for the rest of my life.

Loyalty costs a lot of energy