Who can I blame my flaws besides me?

I just watched The Stranger by the Beach, I knew it was gay, but I wasn't expecting them to eat each other...

ok chat, I'm not gay
at the sex scene, I felt disgust
but at the kiss scenes, I kinda felt aroused...
but it's good to know that I'm not THAT gay, I was just overthinking about my sexual orientation apparently!

my experience watching this:

the first kiss scene:
"mhmmggrr i kinda like it"

the second + more intense kiss scene:
"yeah, I still like it"

scene of them hugging each other without shirt:
"yea... that's not bad"

sex scene:
"nah, this is disgusting, there's levels to this, nah..."

and they were using flip flops the whole movie... like... this is ugly, specially men using flipflops... I really don't feel attracted to male body... and the movie make their faces look feminine, so I was attracted to their faces... but their body—specially their feet... nah, I didn't like these views...

Mothers are responsible for many of the weaknesses in the male population.
They can be abusive, they don’t give you enough space, and they’re always trying to dig deeper into your thoughts, as if they don’t understand that some feelings aren’t meant to be shared with them or even known by them. They want to longhouse you, make you weak, and they act selfishly. And if you have the unfortunate situation where your father is a weak man who doesn’t assert himself over his wife, she becomes even more controlling over you as a consequence.

At my uni, every single boy is retarded and weak — they make me look like an extroverted person. I've come to visit some of them, and in every house I go by, they were like, extremely "good boys" extremely caring for their moms, and always giving too much of themselves at home.

they are not aware of how their moms fucked their lives... they didn't have an edgy phase where they go alone and do stupid things, which seems wise, but as I can see, they really needed to have that phase.

I also have my flaws, I'm to timid to "disturb" people—when I actually need to disturb them.

ex: "I need to ask about this exam to my teacher, but... I don't really want to disturb him... I should go home and study it alone"
"I should ask that person if he has any job for me... but I really don't want to disturb him, asking for jobs..."

this behavior was actually taught by my mom, she made sure that I never disturbed anyone when I was a kid. She taught me to never ask others for stuff... which seems reasonable, but as soon as I grow up, I realized that you don't go far if you don't disturb others...

even on the internet, I’m not actually that annoying. I only act this way on my own channel because it’s my blog, so I can be as annoying as I want here. But I never go to other people’s channels and bother them there… and if I ever do, I stop as soon as I realize how annoying I’m being.

me and my best oomfies

hime cuts are so cute

I’m so anxious dude, there’s to many exams to do this week

Cosplaying L around these NPCs, they ain’t like me ✌️