Scribe your soul out
Watch Attack on Titan online free on 9anime https://9animetv.to/watch/attack-on-titan-112?ep=3303
about to start my second anime.
i’m being forced to watch it.
my first was one punch man
i was forced then too, but ended up loving it.
esti i hate being recommended stuff, but tru sw selhonku aywalew.
i’m being forced to watch it.
my first was one punch man
i was forced then too, but ended up loving it.
esti i hate being recommended stuff, but tru sw selhonku aywalew.
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Blue Cabins
- I unintentionally use my friends/people around me to validate myself. It has made me think if the basis of my friendships is built on the benefits sought from it. I hope not, I hope I care for them for who they are and not for who they are to me. But, is that possible? I don't know.
okay so,
this thing eats at me too. i feel selfish even in the small things, like when i want to write my friends a letter. it’s supposed to be something sweet but somewhere in the back of my mind i know it’s also about me and only me.
about wanting to feel like i care, wanting to be seen as someone who does.
and when i lost a friend, i realized my grief wasn’t just about them being gone, it was about me losing them. i cried because they wouldn’t be here for me anymore. and that felt ugly to see how love can still circle back to yourself i felt like i didn’t deserve it the grief ( overthinker final boss) i keep asking myself how to love people without needing them, without them having to serve some quiet purpose in my life. i love my friends because i can exist around them without shrinking. my overexcitement, my endless details, my stupid laughs all the things that feel “too much” everywhere else are allowed with them. and when i think of what i love about them, most of it isn’t about who they are when i’m not around. it’s who they are to ME.
when i overthink it, it feels selfish. but maybe everything is conditional, not maybe it IS.
every type of love, every kind of care. we try to say it’s pure, but it always depends on something
how they make us feel, what they bring out of us, the version of ourselves that exists around them. every reason we give for loving someone is a condition, and maybe that’s not something to be ashamed of even if it feels like so sort of selfishness but loving someone comes with a condition, respecting is something natural.
everything we say about a person, even when it comes from our own point of view still shows who they are how they exist in our world. maybe i overthink it, but at the end of the day, people are loved in the conditions they present themselves in, and maybe that’s enough.
idk if it makes sense.
this thing eats at me too. i feel selfish even in the small things, like when i want to write my friends a letter. it’s supposed to be something sweet but somewhere in the back of my mind i know it’s also about me and only me.
about wanting to feel like i care, wanting to be seen as someone who does.
and when i lost a friend, i realized my grief wasn’t just about them being gone, it was about me losing them. i cried because they wouldn’t be here for me anymore. and that felt ugly to see how love can still circle back to yourself i felt like i didn’t deserve it the grief ( overthinker final boss) i keep asking myself how to love people without needing them, without them having to serve some quiet purpose in my life. i love my friends because i can exist around them without shrinking. my overexcitement, my endless details, my stupid laughs all the things that feel “too much” everywhere else are allowed with them. and when i think of what i love about them, most of it isn’t about who they are when i’m not around. it’s who they are to ME.
when i overthink it, it feels selfish. but maybe everything is conditional, not maybe it IS.
every type of love, every kind of care. we try to say it’s pure, but it always depends on something
how they make us feel, what they bring out of us, the version of ourselves that exists around them. every reason we give for loving someone is a condition, and maybe that’s not something to be ashamed of even if it feels like so sort of selfishness but loving someone comes with a condition, respecting is something natural.
everything we say about a person, even when it comes from our own point of view still shows who they are how they exist in our world. maybe i overthink it, but at the end of the day, people are loved in the conditions they present themselves in, and maybe that’s enough.
idk if it makes sense.
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today’s lesson:
don’t waste the energy you’ve been building up all week.
empty again.
don’t waste the energy you’ve been building up all week.
empty again.
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if really want to actually know what a women goes through go to court.
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people and words don’t piss me off much anymore there’s a much stronger force inside me now.
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knocks*
sees me lying sideways on the bed, both leg supported on the window, earphones in, laptop resting on my chest
Sighs and quietly closes the door.
sees me lying sideways on the bed, both leg supported on the window, earphones in, laptop resting on my chest
Sighs and quietly closes the door.
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honestly, i wish you benefited from me.
but i’m an empty human who can’t seem to stop being miserable and just stfu.
but i’m an empty human who can’t seem to stop being miserable and just stfu.
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ene eko sechemalk nw engi i am blessed with beautiful and amazing friends geta hoy.
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