If we exclude the thoughts.

Tey hafsa tey.

Guys I choked on fish bones.

And my second instinct after coughing for a minute, was to come tell y'all.

endi beklalu ema alhedm embiyew.

I'm romanticizing my break so much that I might end up wasting the whole month.

“I had invited such questions by having a public life as a mentally ill person, but still, talking so much about myself in the context of fiction became exhausting for me, and a little destabilizing. I told the interviewer that no, I do not have anxiety around kissing, but I do experience panic attacks, and they are intensely frightening. As I talked, I felt distant from myself—like my self wasn’t really mine, but instead something I was selling or at the very least renting out in exchange for good press.
As I recovered from labyrinthitis, I realized I didn’t want to write in code anymore.”

Excerpt From
The Anthropocene Reviewed
John Green

Can adulthood be quieted?

Selfishness stops when one fully accepts death, that's when one becomes fully human, pure human.
Enlightenment?
I should sleep.

Me reading.

Highlighting the entire book*

I am so used to communicating online that I forgot how to be audible in real life.

i can only be comfortable with animals.
yes, you can lick my hands and
i wouldn’t mind.
yes, you can lay on my lap.

growing up with a type A and a type B brothers had made me both, so i get annoyed by both of them on how they live.

now that this channel has become private, I can breathe more easily. I want to love it again.
I am learning to do so.

I said I want to love it and not get attached.

apologizing and explaining here.

Me loves this place
from y’all’s perspective I’m amazed, betam. i’m honestly shocked that you’re even here, especially the people who actually own one.

From my perspective, I feel like it drains you with how much input there is. And when I say “leave,” it’s because I need this place as my outlet, and in my mind I want to stop it from torturing y’all.That’s why I come off hostile.
its all in the head.

But I love y’all for staying, for tolerating it.
At the same time, I
wish you never had to relate to some of the agonizing posts I make. I wish it wasn’t the same world… but sometimes it feels like the same script just different people playing it.
I am trying to be brutally honest here only few people in my real life know about this place and I tend to keep it that way.



In short

I love the place and y'all,
But it drains the shit out of me.( explains the hostile behavior)
And I don't want to take it as a big thing,because it’s not a big thing in the day to day i live.

mn agbagn
you will be broke

but i will take care of you💋

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Eshi can you stop telling us to leave biyans?

here.