My painkillers only work at night.

I used to test myself a lot. I always tried to sleep first before taking any painkillers for a headache.
I would breathe slowly stretch my muscles sip tea before even thinking about using an inhaler or taking medicine for cramps.But now? I’m all for the pills.Any minor inconvenience, and I take my meds.Maybe I’m weaker now more impatient, more tired of feeling pain.Why tolerate it for even a second?
Sometimes I even take my cramp meds before the pain begins just to stop it from ever coming. To defend myself before it returns.
Does it scare me how much I depend on it when I get sick?
It used to.But now, I don’t think I can mentally handle physical pain anymore.
I don’t tolerate things.
I take the pills before the pain.
I close the door before it slams shut.
I run before I’m chased.
I go quiet before I’m muted.
And honestly nothing has ever felt peaceful

This won't look good for the degree.
Oh well

Am so chronically online
Am stuck with
The man on the lakers.
I can't stop saying it

I wish I knew more about basketball
I can't stop saying it.

I love Instagram people.

Specially spam pages.

I swear if the street were safer, you would never see me going home early.

I just love it at night.
So beautiful and alive.

Never showing a man what I wrote about him.

“You laugh with yourself a lot”
God forbid am funny up there.😔

loneliness got the best of me now I'm in a nigga vc of iranian and tajik humans

Smh

I opened it for her and she wasn’t here

Thank god for gelila tho always a gem.

A hug?

The way I mashkabet for the new things I buy, enjoy ur time babes.