You were showing me signs,
I was blind To see.

I had a dream that felt like real life, and it's not the first time this has happened to me. In the dream, my brother accidentally hit someone with the car and didn't stop. I was in the passenger seat, begging him to pull over, but he just said he would get his license changed (which I didn't even know was possible) and I knew he was scared. I hugged him tightly and he was shaking. We've never been that close before, and our mom was in the back asking random questions (I don't remember what, and I don't know why she was even in the dream). The house we stopped at was our old one, the one we grew up in. I can still feel the anxiety I felt when I was hugging him, and I was worried about the girl he hit. I could hear my mom mumbling in the background, but all I could think about was that I was a bad person for making him leave the girl. It was a pretty complicated situation, and I knew deep down that I cared more about my brother's life than hers. When I woke up and realized it was just a dream, I started to wonder if everyone has nightmares like this. Dreams that feel so real that you can't tell the difference between them and your actual life. Do you have dreams like this too? Do you ever wake up feeling scared or unable to convince yourself that it was just a bad dream? That it didn't happen I wanted to write down what happened before I forgot, but I just can't seem to shake the feeling that it was all real.

And now i can't sleep.

Kung Fu Panda was meh 7/10 i mean I like it but maybe i outgrew it idk it just doesn't feel right.

Everybody that treats you like shit will act like they support you once you accomplish something.

You find peace when you are at peace

Learn to accept it, Learn to move without knowing why.

The ground turned lava, no way to flee,
No place to jump, just burning me,
It wasn't just play, but life's harsh spree,
From mom to me, to daughters to be.
🍀

It's kind of tough when every mistake I make seems to put a smile on your face ,Each mistake I make seems to give you cause to treat me poorly.

I've felt quite alone recently, even though I have so many people around me. It's a feeling that comes and goes, and that's ok, I'm not going to put pressure on myself to be "fine" when I'm not. I'm going to honor how I feel and take care of myself, but sticking around is worth it for the good days to come.
Keep going, I'm so unbelievably proud of you.

“The first group fails because their logic is their own; the second fails because logic is all they own.”

Excerpt From
A Little Life
Hanya Yanagihara

Badooooooo

The world doesn't deserve you.

Yet.

I never know how to respond to a compliment am not shy I just can't take compliments i like giving them though.

Maybe it's because part of me doesn't believe it.

I often find myself wondering what led to the disappointment I've experienced from others. Was it my appearance, my speech, or my posture? I wish I could ask each person directly and hear them say that it was my actions that caused it because I would be happy if you said it was my actions rather than rest.

It sometimes may seem like you're going to end up alone with no friends but trust me you won't.