it reminded me of something that took me straight to YouTube to watch Epic Rap Battles. It brought back memories from about 12 years ago when every Sunday after church, we'd go to our dad's office and he’d let us download whatever we wanted. I remember sitting there and watching Epic Rap Battles and even though I was young I loved the humor I was 6 or 7 idk why I got it but I did Watching those battles and roasting each other was a big part of what shaped my sense of humor (even if I'm not the best at it) we used to roast each other It made my day I highly recommend watching the old rap battles they’re still hilarious!

People remind you that the person beside you is a gem, but sometimes you need that reminder more than you realize. Deep down, you always knew, but you ignored it. You don’t tell them that this is the person who literally saved your life because you’re afraid to admit that a part of your life needed saving. You’re scared to admit that you weren’t the hero, that at one point, you were just trying to breathe. But then, people remind you why you loved that person and what they truly mean to you.

Even though I'm not comfortable saying this, I really appreciate you. I talk about you maybe too much or too little, but I can't help it. You are the most interesting person I truly know.

I feel guilty for being on my phone, but right now it’s the only thing that can keep my mind occupied.

I should've carried a book.

Female doctors are so beautiful.

Some guy just told his friend 2:30 nw loud and I wanted to correct him but mehhh let him figure it out.

People are being so kind, offering each other coffee and sharing the food they brought. It filled me with happiness.

They offered me a cake too no megderdering for a cake.

Yeah fun while it lasted guy just roasted me after offering me the cake again.

Weyoooooo I got kollo nowww

Constant sighs are worse than a scream.

So I don't usually promote stuff here because well I don't want to.
but my little sister is starting something and this is my way of getting a discount so please check it out.
https://t.me/Ethio_USA_Store

I just slept 2 hours in a room full of strangers and I am letting that sink in.

Mtsm
just when I started enjoying hopecore.

Both.

So this week I tried to keep it all in because everyone was under pressure, and I understand that what they did was just them being scared. I stepped far outside of my comfort zone, heard things I should never have heard, and tolerated things I normally wouldn't. All I did was pray, then shut them out whenever they said something offensive. I held it in.

If you know me, you'd know how intense I am ,my emotions react fast. I get excited too quickly, and I also get sad or mad too fast. But surprisingly, I was calm this time. I was dealing with other things, but I wasn't scared. I knew everything would be fine, and if not, I just prayed. To get the heart to handle anything that came my way.

Today, my prayers were answered እግዚአብሔር ይመስገን !! and everything turned out fine. But after all that strength, I had my first breakdown today a big one. It was because of a "joke" at least that’s what they called it but it felt real. I felt incredibly weak. I was mad at myself but then I started thinking about where this feeling was coming from. The "joke" was hurtful it made me feel alone i had to call someone close to calm down and I didn’t see any humor in it. I was really trying to stay strong. And kinda failed but I didn’t respond I just felt it with myself the emotions was mine I didn’t say anything bad that I was proud of my point is the calmness was still there I did had a breakdown I didn’t affect the one who caused it I felt it and know am good.

I'm grateful. I'm proud of how much I’m maturing. I can feel myself becoming the woman I've dreamed of being calm, and full of faith in my God. I know this is just the beginning, but I should appreciate this start. All these emotions are part of the journey and I shouldn't be mad at myself when I cry or get emotional. I'm not taking God’s work for granted, and I’m not romanticizing it, but I am proud of myself for staying calm amidst the chaos.