You finish the coffee and go to lie on her bed. The bed feels soft familiar and comforting. You fall into a deep sleep. You dream of being in your own bed. You see your mother feeding you because she hates leftovers you left and tells you she made it so you can eat and she doesn't want to throw it out.She puts everything on a big platter and feeds each of you, going from room to room. You hear your brothers resisting saying they’re full. You know you’re going to be next so you pretend to be asleep but she knows you’re not. She wakes you up and tries to feed you. You resist, angry at her angry because you don’t want to eat.

At the time you felt annoyed frustrated but now you miss it. The things you never expected to become memories have turned into some of the deepest ones. You miss that feeling the way she cared the way she insisted. You wish you could wake up to it one more time.

You’re back in your grandmother’s house staring at the ceiling now you are awake The room feels so comfortable almost like home. You hear the rain outside and it sounds peaceful cozy. You glance at your phone and realize you’ve slept for three hours. You look back up at the ceiling and without realizing tears start to run down your face. You don’t move you’re still silent your eyes fixed on a spot above. Your body feels heavy and eventually your eyes close again you are asleep again.

Then you hear your name. Your grandmother is calling you. You’ve slept too long she is kinda worried asks if your sick now you have a headache for thinking too much of the things you shouldn't and she says you need to eat. Slowly you get up feeling the weight of your dreams still clinging to you and you go to her but somehow it felt good.

And in that moment you realize that maybe you don’t need to hold onto every memory so tightly. Maybe it’s okay to let them come and go, like the rain outside. Maybe it’s enough just to be here in this fleeting moment
with someone who loves you someone who knows all the parts of you that you sometimes forget. Now You close your eyes and thank God you still exist.

I can never say I lowered my standards. I have never had any just show me for an instant, that I exist and that’s all I could ask for.
yet still, that was plenty.

Who do you blame
the person who tore everything apart but is now trying brick by painstaking brick to rebuild what they broke? Or do you blame the one who stands still, refusing to mend a single thing trapped in their own inertia, dragging you down with them? Do you place your faith in the one who caused the ruin but now seeks redemption or do you stand beside the one who resists change, convinced that this stagnant misery is the best they can offer?
One holds a sledgehammer, the other a weight each capable of crushing you in a different way. Who do you choose to follow when both paths seem to lead nowhere?

Yeahhh.

I can feel my obsession with httyd coming back.😁

Bekagn babysitting.

Am about to open a hair salon because I just braided four kids back to back mtsmmm.

I pray that if I have enemies, they be people, not the constant battle raging within my own mind.

Everyone has spiritual struggles and finding the right path can be hard. and i think my boy @naol_builds Understood that and created this group, @lost_and_found_orthodox i am really happy that he did and looking forward to what this new found community could contribute to youth.

Me thinking I was being funny but now cringing after responding seble wengel for semesh manew when a dude asked me in a taxi.
Mtsmmm

“The things we want in life are empty, stale, and trivial. Dogs snarling at each other. Quarreling children—laughing and then bursting into tears a moment later. Trust, shame, justice, truth—‘gone from the earth and only found in heaven.’ Why are you still here?”