btw the new ugc act indeed was unfair. people don’t really understand what casteism actually is. it isn’t just about the present day discrimination or reservation and cutoffs. it’s a centuries long system that decided who was allowed knowledge, dignity, and mobility in the first place. the fact remains that casteism must be completely eradicated (there’s no debate there) but policies like the new ugc act, instead of dismantling caste as a structure, often end up reviving it as a social wound.

i promise i'm a lot less interesting than i seem

i'm highly sophisticated yet very retarded (not pretentious?)

i might actually be pretentious but i don't mean that in a pretentious way

didn't like aaj ki coffee (sugar-less)

so, he was in my dreams today and we had a very cutesy-sweet conversation BUT IT NEEDS TO GO AWAY WTF

the weather is horrendous today. everything feels dull. the sun looks like a white spot in the sky instead of spreading warmth. i feel cold, so cold. i hope my mood isn’t affected by the weather but that seems unlikely. funny how weather has such a toll on your mind. it really does. i should’ve dressed in more layers. it feels like it’ll rain. i hate rain. especially in winters. it’s so cold.
i feel so cold i just want to roll into a ball.

i think i wil give this a read. i don’t fw the self help genre but the premise seems इंट्रेस्टिंग

i have such a long to-do list and i don’t even know where to begin. everything feels jumbled in my head. it’s like thoughts are crossing each other without stopping. i start thinking of one thing and end up somewhere else entirely. there’s a lot to do ugh. i’m tired. tired enough to want sleep immediately. but i like this tiredness. at least it’s physical and not that dull mental heaviness i had during my off days. that tiredness was worse, doing nothing and still feeling drained. this feels earned. still, the work is waiting. a huge pile at that and my mind can’t quite separate it and put it down neatly on paper. it just floats around, unfinished in my head. i’ll try to do most of it this weekend. i'm so confusingly happy.

cute day. did a lil trekking and surprisingly i wasn’t exhausted this time.

been writing dost ke bhai ka assignment 😊

ho jayega.

i love my bed so much.

MY EXISTENCE IS AN EMBARRASSMENT ATP 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

not a single aurafarming bone in my body ughhhh jdkdkelqkshgejekskdjdjsjsj

and why is my mom trying to read my diary??????