i watched attack on titan, and i’m genuinely thankful i did. i like to think of myself as someone who wants to explore everything there is to explore without any pre-made judgments about genres, so i gave anime a chance. i had watched things in the anime genre before, but this was my first fully committed watch, and that too a massively popular one. i’m thankful to the person who made me watch it (we don’t really talk anymore, so this show will always remind me of them.)
it’s a truly well-written piece (undeniable.) i know some people don’t agree, especially when it comes to season four and the ending. i’ve heard the complaints. but i don’t think the ending was wrong. i think it had to happen the way it did. the point was that eren was a fuck-up and that’s the truth people struggle with.
i fell in love with almost all the characters levi ackerman (LOVEHIM), sasha (obviously), and that entire first group. the chemistry they had was beautiful. hange, omg one of the best female characters in the entire show. and erwin's speech lmao every time it comes up in reels or edits, my masculine energy comes out. it’s impossible not to feel it.
when i started season one, i had no idea the story would expand the way it did. at first it’s all titans - titans are the enemy, titans are the problem and then slowly you realise that titans were never the real issue. eventually, they’re almost nothing. it was always people. i would never have guessed that. i know i’ll rewatch this show someday with a completely different perspective.

and all those plot twists had me GAGGED. like every single one of those. and another thing- the animation and the soundtrack is so POWERFUL. there were so many scenes that were so unbearably beautiful i don’t even know how to describe them. i know i’ll remember this show for a very long time.
i love jean. i love jean so much. i love levi so much. honestly, i love everyone, even reiner. and that moment when reiner just casually tells eren, "i'm the armored titan, and bertholdt here is the colossal titan" i genuinely didn’t even process it at first. i was like huh? what? did that just happen? and then it hit me and i started tweaking cuz wtf? why are you saying this so nonchalantly?(day1 in pakistan as a spy)
and levi ackerman bhai i will never get over him. third season levi ackerman was offensively fine. and then season four happened and despite his condition, he still fought and killed zeke. insane. levi fandom me new hu, bag kidhar rakhu?
i’ll admit this though that i struggled a bit with understanding season four. a lot of it went over my head on the first watch. my understanding right now is surface level. i know i’ll rewatch the entire thing one day.
sasha and nicolo yaar. and the fight scenes were pure adrenaline every single time, especially when they all fought together. and whenever levi fought was just so fucking hot.
jean has been one of my favourites since season one. i think understood where his fears and selfishness came from and i loved his arc. and then hange was crazy and i loved her for that.
armin will always be one of my favourite characters. armin and annie together was cute and the fact that armin literally inherited bertholdt’s (i like how the fandom calls him everything but that) titan, killed him (ouch), stole his girl like cmon.

this wailing is going to haunt me forever

i think jean is my favorite character in the entire show.

the way they think calling someone a feminist is an insult is concerning. and i think this roots back to pseudo-feminism and feminism itself being turned into an aesthetic or caricature of angry, bitter, and man hating women. i hope we recover from this sickness soon though.

heated rivalry 😝

सुबह सुबह 😡

realizing an old friend has actually become insufferable beyond recourse is the most freeing of all the unfortunate canon events of adulthood.

i want my reactions back

i got my reactions back

i am cringe and not free. i’m cringe and extremely self-conscious. but will that stop me from being cringe? hell no. (see how cringe this channel is, and it still exists.)

trust me, this is something bukowski would smirk at.
human desire often crosses boundaries, and even something as tender as a kiss has the undertone of consuming the other, be it metaphorically, emotionally or physically

18 january
watched an unhealthy amount of heated rivalry edits, did laundry, cried like a baby in front of mom after ages, did a diy haircut (bad idea), read a few emily dickinson poems, had a pretty long vc (bad idea).

i should steal mom's sweaters more often