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i have never been afraid of the idea of dying. you could call it bravery, but i don’t think it is. it’s more that i don’t care enough about anything or anyone be it family, friends, the supposed lust for life, the curiosity to see what it might store, none of it. i am fine with whatever happens, good or bad. that might sound cowardly too, and i wouldn’t disagree. sudden urges of motivation come and go, and they’re welcome, but they feel like just another part of the ruckus that life is. you keep yourself under this delusion that you won’t relapse, that you’ll do better, that you’ll change. and that’s fine, i suppose, because, well, life. i watch life as something you simply go through, where nothing really matters. and yet, it changes sometimes. i start thinking maybe we do have control, maybe we can change things, or at least offer ourselves small, temporary happiness like buying that cake, wearing that outfit, applying that nail paint, making that coffee. i like that, even while knowing it doesn’t last. i live for these small pleasures, i suppose. but i wouldn’t flinch if i didn’t wake up tomorrow.
i'm not kms guys so stop sending suicide helpline 😭 i don’t fw the idea of killing oneself.
i rewatched 500 days of summer today. i didn’t understand it the first time i watched it. i’m glad i rewatched it today.
the cinematography and storytelling are so good.
now i wanna talk about tom and how he is such a romantic, shaped by the media he consumes, which is relatable because most of us can agree that the media we consume makes us who we are. often, like tom, we think just because someone likes the same things as us it must mean we are soulmates, but that’s not true. liking the same things is a way to know the other better, i believe, an excuse to keep the conversation going. reading too much into it is our fault alone. we have all been a tom, desperate to find someone somehow, anyhow.
i think at this point i resonate with summer too kinda. i understand why she did what she did when she did. it makes so much sense. also, it’s tom’s perspective we are seeing, so we don’t get a deep dive into summer. but i don’t completely agree with her either, because you can’t lure someone so deep and say we are just friends. you carry a responsibility as soon as you start things with someone.
now thinking about tom, he seemed so pathetic, just like so many people i know. i still fail to understand how people can cling on to the one person who did so much wrong to them. these unrealistic movies and songs and stuff set our standards so high and even try to teach us what love is, and that’s bullshit. tom is stubborn and has this silly idea of love.
summer can be called the manic pixie dream girl, though not really, but okay. i like how both of them changed each other.
now i wanna talk about tom and how he is such a romantic, shaped by the media he consumes, which is relatable because most of us can agree that the media we consume makes us who we are. often, like tom, we think just because someone likes the same things as us it must mean we are soulmates, but that’s not true. liking the same things is a way to know the other better, i believe, an excuse to keep the conversation going. reading too much into it is our fault alone. we have all been a tom, desperate to find someone somehow, anyhow.
i think at this point i resonate with summer too kinda. i understand why she did what she did when she did. it makes so much sense. also, it’s tom’s perspective we are seeing, so we don’t get a deep dive into summer. but i don’t completely agree with her either, because you can’t lure someone so deep and say we are just friends. you carry a responsibility as soon as you start things with someone.
now thinking about tom, he seemed so pathetic, just like so many people i know. i still fail to understand how people can cling on to the one person who did so much wrong to them. these unrealistic movies and songs and stuff set our standards so high and even try to teach us what love is, and that’s bullshit. tom is stubborn and has this silly idea of love.
summer can be called the manic pixie dream girl, though not really, but okay. i like how both of them changed each other.