everytime i join a new fandom i feel like i'm ripping my soul into another hocrux.

words of wisdom
महँगे कपड़े पहनने से कोई इंसान बड़ा नहीं हो जाता
इंसान बड़ा तब होता है जब उसके पुराने कपड़े छोटे हो जाते हैं

okay saumya listen up. first of all, he most probably has a girlfriend. the source is weak, yes, but the possibility exists. so back off. second, he’s not that great. okay no, that’s too much. he is great. but he’s not your type. maybe a little. but mostly you’re gaslighting yourself into thinking he’s perfectly your type. he’s not. no, we are not carrying this into the next year. not even into the remaining days of this year. you have to get over him.
and no, you’re not going to shit-talk him. why would you? there’s nothing wrong with him. the problem is you manipulating yourself into thinking there might be the slightest bit of interest from his side. there isn’t. stop deluding yourself. delusion is not coming with you into the next year. so, he’s off-limits. off the racks of your brain.
next year, try to be less performative around people. just be yourself. forget that you’re being watched. everything will fall into place.

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yawr apke coffee m drugs to nhi h na

i do the bakchodi thodi der but fir meri bakchodi khatam ho jati hai aur mai sochti hu itni bakchodi aai kaha se (i know it's the coffee, i just can't prove it yet) and then i feel like deleting sari bakchodi but then i think ki if you don't like me at my bakchodi then you don't deserve me at my bhondu.

true

when i'm trying to go to sleep but then i remember and remember and remember and-

read gaban. 3.5 stars. ahead of it’s time. loved the beginning and that first half but towards the end it started getting repetitive.

sugar?

alec benjamin ki yaad aa gayi

sultan ab ring mein wapas nhi jayega

so, i watched homebound. i want to rip my soul apart and cry for an infinite amount of time.