me and my beast hashtag my beast

драться с хаосом в бга2 vs рог трейдере на корабликах это прям страшно разный опыт

им так не хватает кнопки ускорения боев

another episode of feeling evil and like i already lost at everything i was doing and there's no point in anything ever arghhhhh

nothing i do ever brings any results nothing ever changes why should i even keep trying!!!

maybe i should just let myself rot away already!!!!

worst creator ever can't create shit can only think in circles and hate

i wish i could stop being me but no matter how much my brain rots from the inside it never fucking gets rid of myself

i used to be not good enough but now i'm just not good at all

putting yourself down isn't nice to your friends but i also don't have any energy to like myself in any capacity

nor do i know how anyone likes me. i think if i met myself as i am i would want to kill her

can't say i feel particularly better but at least i'm back to doing something

i think it's pretty evil that the "needs connection" syndrome is also making me more unbearable than normal

this about both npd and pmdd

смотрю видео и думаю "хм насколько же этот автор убился с этой табличкой по лору, он не звучит как человек который таким занимается с первого взгл- а, ваха ксеносы фанат. checks out"

(author showed a very cool collection of his orcs as an explanation to why he actually likes when there's a lot of random lore if it comes as an addition to an actual story)

sorry i keep talking about warhammer nothing else brings me joy anymore

i like this guy his fursona is a hyena and he fills out excel spreadsheets for fun just like me

i too want a hyena fursona but i feel like people are going to be mean if i don't make it a mouse