а еще я не знаю мне кажется меня сейчас от всего бы тошнило

им нужно изобрести еду от которой не тошнит и ничего не болит

i am a very abled individual who can exist normally it's the world that's evil and hates me /j

надо собраться с силами и сходить за пачкой чая а то я схлопнусь

еще я хочу во что-нибудь погеймить из стимовского но uuuuu

uuuuu in this one is "playing alone seems boring but i wanna play something i'm already familiar with in a chill way"

like dunno i would wanna play do not harm or kh2 or even one of the evil wh40k games where i have to think but i don't know how busy anyone is and those also can be pretty boring to look at

sometimes you're not even worried about privacy you just have like five different things going on and explaining them is way too long and complicated

not beating cat allegations bc why i spend like two weeks being "actually i don't want to talk to anyone ever in vc" and now suddenly i am evil and mad that i haven't vc-ed in a while. well the answer is probably hormones but maybe there's something more sinister afoot

okay actually the answer is probably me running out of supply and my alleged npd rearing its head again

uuuu maybe i am inherently evil and hateful and soulless and whatever.

okay no it's totally hormones fucking my mental state more than normal

which logically doesn't mean literally anything about handling this but also obviously means that i should just ignore everything forever because this is a skill issue and not an actual problem/hj

hormones don't make feelings invalid when it's other people. when it's me they should take me out and shoot me for being emotional

i should stop talking probably

i want to become pure energy instead of flesh sigh

i hate that i feel shitty and manipulative whenever i complain about being upset over any lack of social interactions but i also feel shitty whenever i don't say anything at all