oh and also i gotta run home tomorrow if i wanna make it to state of play uuuuu

on one hand i want to pin my vent channel so i stop searching it up every time and on the other i think if i ever confuse it with this one i might just kill myself

the potential embarrassment is ranging from "ah this is too much self hatred for public" to "fucking shit i don't actually think that i was just angry" to "this is the worst literally the worst way to accidentally confirm who i was talking about with the obsessing posts fuck"

so yeah either way not winning

can my head stop hurting now i took a painkiller...

me but it's the next year. i am fixing everything by my next trip to novosibirsk or i'm going to go in the taiga

i'm going to graduate and also have every complicated talk i need to have (which is. one actually i think) and i'm going to start working on everything and i'll see a doctor and i'll finish all current commissions

and then i'll still going to go live in taiga because i'll still fuck something up probably

and i will also not have the talk right now because i need to learn to stop fucking rushing head first into them even if i'm scared that the time passage will make everything worse

for all my favorite mysterious never says anything characters i'm a very blunt person actually

i found something out about what i'm feeling and it's everyone's problem now /j

но серьезно мне бы часть избегательности некоторых моих товарищей а то мне чуть ли не физически тяжело откладывать то что мне кажется важным разговором

on one hand it's probably good when i'm talking to other avoidant people on the other i kinda feel like an asshole and a spoilsport because it's like i just have to ruin a nice day/talk/relationship by being serious

я возможно сделаю финт ушами и начну писать текст для письма потому что тогда я начну недовольно вибрировать и прокрастинировать и возможно напрокрастинирую себе диплом

poking corru dot observer with a stick every half an hour come onnn do somethinggg

he's still like me for real...

something incredibly comedic in me switching between watching death note (with the "ohhh this is why i related to light") to watching nakamura-kun (with "ohhh he's like me for real!")

внутри тебя два волка один это мальчик подросток с комплексом бога а другой это мальчик подросток в постоянной гей панике

я вообще думали поменять оформу но нашли только одну официалку по тетрадке которая мне нравится так что возможно наскриню себе накамуру и из этого выберу