crazy shit you think about at approximately 6 am when you haven't slept for fucking ages

I'd burn my house to say I'm busy
I don't wanna help you
your parents had gone missing
I won't be there for you
laying under weighted blanket
sleeping this one through
they said this time I really fumbled
I expect some care from you

but oh how much I don't
want to be this real
I so, so much have
to learn some discipline

(and then you pretend to sleep just so you can tell your friends that you had a dream about something really important to you. you lie to them, obviously just in need to be heard. but they don't really care this time, or at least you think so)

помните была такая крутая девочка ее звали надя макарова? теперь она линхедс.... променяла получается....родину на бургер......или на фиш эн чипс

constantly watched

damn I miscalculated
your intelligence's fading
you're being constantly watched

I guess I finally succeeded
you need to start receding
you're being constantly watched

I gonna visit my granny
you no longer have many
you're being constantly watched

huh? what was that line for?
I don't think that being constantly watched lead to losing one of my relatives I haven't even seen. why the fuck are you being like this? who even are you?

okay, we need to take a break.

I slept for twelve hours,
I didn't do a lot
for this entire day I'll just lay on my couch
(oh fuck) I'm being constantly watched!!!!

I need to find a job
and be the best fifteen year old
because I'm being.... constantly watched

I'm gonna be working hard
so maybe one day I could afford
myself to not

have a feeeeeliiiing
that I'm beeeeiiiing

CONSTANTLY WATCHED

теперь мы ещё и песенки тут поём, ого

возможно что-то пишется

я хочу запостить, но у меня только огрызки

uncertain

let me brace it with all the dignity you left
I've never felt this hollow
treating memories I have as what I theft
there are some rules I never follow.

//допишу позже, но мне и так нравится