I'm fine with being friends. Entirely. I would have been, at least, if she told me upfront so I could at least have the time to process all of it.

But.. she doesn't even consider me a close friend.

FUCKING WHY

WHERE DID I GO WRONG

I CAN'T FUCKING FALL ASLEEP BECAUSE OF THIS BULLSHIT

I'VE LOST A FRIEND OVER THIS ALREADY, I DON'T FUCKING WANT TO LOSE MORE

I've tried so fucking hard to stay friends. She seemed like such a great person to be around.

And now I'm just completely unable to talk to her because I went too far when I shouldn't have.

I don't fucking know how to talk to people. I don't know if what I'm saying is rude or insensitive. And if I say something stupid, please, PLEASE let me know, don't just fucking block me out of nowhere.

I want to, but I'm so fucking exhausted

I had 2 hours of sleep today. I could barely get up to get my phone.

All I want is to sleep

I can't. I keep thinking about stupid shit that doesn't matter any longer.

I'm going to sign off here. Maybe sleeping pills will help. The regular dosage is way too hard for me so I think I should just lick the pill once

Why can't I fucking sleep jfc

I have been trying to for so long

I don't even have anything on my mind any longer

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