Of course the internet is the culprit

Of course I don't need any of my friends

I don't even know what I'm going to do with the fact that I've hurt someone I have considered a close friend.

I hate the fact that I don't even care about even more. I know I should care about it.

I don't fucking know how to make the situation better. All of my attempts have been in vain and I feel like an egoistic twat because I always considered that she's perfectly happy with someone else and doesn't have any feelings toward me any longer

I don't fucking know how affection works.

I'm starting to question whether I've felt anything to begin with.

I mean.. Probably, if the breakup hit me that hard. But.. I don't fucking remember the feeling any longer.

This is kind of a personal topic and I already regret saying this in a public channel but I don't fucking know how or where to say it otherwise

I already regret most of the things I've done in my life, so whatever

I want to sleep so badly but my head is just a mess

I'm trying to tell what the fuck I even want to write but it's just incoherent screaming

And I'm probably over my sarcastic self-loathing quota for today anyway

So I guess I'm just gonna funnel my thoughts into /dev/null. See you at whatever I can consider "tomorrow".

Who needs caffeine when you have anxiety?

Seriously, I'm wide awake with 2h of sleep

https://t.me/loudbarking/6417
Because then you get twice the anxiety and my heart rate is literally killing me

Anyway, I had to take a blood test - the kind from my vein - today

There was this lady who was bossing everyone around and she was rude to the point that others made snarky remarks against her

She told me "you need to take your coat off before you go register, you're not in some eatery" as I was taking off my fucking coat and I was like "uh, that's exactly what I'm doing?"